Hashu - Don't Try To Call. lyrics

[Intro: Hashu] My eyes are so heavy x3 Thoughts of paranoia in my mind already And my eyes so heavy Thoughts of paranoia in my mind already Don't try to call cause I shattered my f**ing phone I know it's bad to get mad when I'm all alone There's not a place that a havoc can call a home Fighting demons and doing it on my own Don't try to call cause I shattered my f**ing phone I know it's bad to get mad when I'm all alone There's not a place that a havoc can call a home Fighting demons and doing it on my own [Verse 1: Hashu] Lately I've been stressing Days of adolescence spent paid to make a sentence But I've been raging getting reckless Just popped another pill, I'm getting faded did I mention? I just...hit a hundred on the way home and didn't flinch If I swerve and flip my car then I don't give a sh** Trying to find a reason to slow down but can't think of it Think God was never listening Don't try to call cause I can't bear to hear your voice You're scared I'll make the choice when I'm staring through the void And you, had the chance to stop this but you chose to walk away You chose to walk away when you know that I would stay Now I just wonder where I lost myself? I spend my time trying not to off myself Said I just wonder where I lost myself? I spend my time trying not to off myself [Chorus: Hashu] My eyes are so heavy Thoughts of paranoia in my mind already And my eyes so heavy Thoughts of paranoia my mind already Don't try to call cause I shattered my f**ing phone I know it's bad to get mad when I'm all alone There's not a place that a havoc can call a home Fighting demons and doing it on my own Don't try to call cause I shattered my f**ing phone I know it's bad to get mad when I'm all alone There's not a place that a havoc can call a home Fighting demons and doing it on my own [Verse 2: Hashu] I've had some battles with my demons, I can show you the scars I can open up my chest and show the hole in my heart I'm expected as an artist, put my soul into art But it's hard when everyday I'm falling slowly apart It's funny how I fall apart whenever you two are together I think I thought that you meant it when you said "we'd be forever" Look at every picture, every letter Then look at things now and just pretend that they were better Don't try to call cause I no longer pray for love Now every time I'm drowning I don't try to stay above Now every time I see you I'm ok with sitting stuck Now every time you call me I no longer give a f** So f** your thoughts if they think of me I know I'm alone and I no longer pray for sympathy The world is so cold I don't care if I feel frigidly Cause I could use the voices in my head to write a symphony