HartlessBeatz - Experience (feat. MOD-E) lyrics

[Verse 1: Mayham] I've been with a few girls, I never knew hoes Maybe they were too cold, maybe they rude, but who knows I do go by my word, I do know how hurt feels I've known how it feels to be the motherf**ing third wheel I do know rock bottom, and I know what it's like to have nothing And if I say my life's perfect, know that I am bluffing I do know pain of past loving to the point of mad suffering And I do know what it's like to go to work and come back busing And it's about time I lace up, and I know how to play tough And if I ain't got a tough act then f** it I'll fake one Cause I know what it's like to be pulling the same stunt Straight up I do take d**, excuse the pun, I stay blunt I think it's been a little while since I've felt alive It's cause all of the other days, homie all I felt was high I don't feel like trying, it feels like I've failed and died Cause it feels like I failed to bail from jail this time As you're laying in bed, you feel it play in your head And every day is a mess replaying as you wake in stress With this dull a** mood staying as gray as it gets And you're taking a step but you're so afraid of the edge Man she's doing things to you, she knew the ways that you could've hurt f**ing right you said it several times that it would've worked They say love is a one way street, well it took a turn Thought you'd be with other girls but no one was as good as her And you're too mindless to be, that's not the mindset of you Cause this person, you're stuck to em, as if I would've knew But what the hell do you do when you're too blinded and glued She a gem that you would die for, guess it's a die-mond, you fool [Verse 2: MOD-E] Every hint of your scent is an exposure to ambrosia Every brush with your skin only yearns to be closer Every view of you is a high, ecstasy to the eyes I can't deny you've been running miles in my mind Siphoning my sense to a space so sublime You're a drug I'm an addict You shift my paradigm I take the doses but you commit the crime A thief you stole my heart, and high jacked my brain I was cruising along now I'm in the fast lane Lately driven insane, just to hear my name Namely from your lips, lips crack and they sound like whips Life as I knew it is over, you've taken the reigns I feel dead when I'm sober, your craving flowing through my veins I'd do anything for you no matter the cost 'Cause it's a meaningless life without you I'm lost Soon you locked another victim but there's only one supply And I was too hooked I couldn't say ever goodbye So I went crazy I went out of my mind And lost myself in places I could never find It's a tragic story I wish I could deny But somewhere deep within me you still reside So no matter how much time that ticks by My heart still pumps blood with bits of you inside But the truth is I never suspected you to be like People are fake as f** out there so I just smile and nod As I began to trust you and this is what I got Even though I'm getting burnt I'm holding tight to a melting pot All my nerves are burnt out I wouldn't feel if I got shot But I could die today and I think it would matter not It would simplify your life, save you the burned of my love My love was all I had but it was never enough But as you put knives in my chest I held you closer So silently you sink a stab straight into my spine But there was nothing I could I say so I acted I was fine So you kept on going, acted if I was blind And my words were blindly labeled jealousy disguised But you knew what you were doing there was never a surprise I stayed loyal through it all yet what was my prize A broken heart turned poet yet there was never compromise And no one to blame but me for my own demise