Hanuman - Fire(Stressed) lyrics

[Verse 1: Swami Netero] I ain't smiled In a minute/ Pro'ly need to see a dentist That seems the only way to fix it/ sh** I got problems Piling to the limit/ Need to get a scissor lift Just to get me above the trenches/ More insecure than anybody You've met in your life/ 'cause I'm rarely satisfied With anything I ever write/ Yet sometimes I seem to lie And front like everything's alright/ When half the time I grip a pencil All I wanna do's resign/ Like I can't do nothing right I even f** up on performamces/ Slur a couple words From being nervous spitting choruses/ Always looking coy From looking down at the floor and sh**/ And feeling like it's pointless 'cause I'll never make it sort of big/ My mind is torturous Can never see the positive/ I always see a problem Instead of being an optimist/ Always say I'll stop it But then seem to do the opposite/ It's like I'd rather focus on the drama Than on solving it/ [Hook(×2): Swami Netero] Lately I been Stressed beyond belief/ I got the world above my sleeves It's getting hard to move my feet/ I'm almost Sinking to my knees/ But got to find the strength to breathe Because my purpose ain't complete/ [Verse 2: Swami Netero] I've never felt like I'm good enough/ It could be from the bullying I dealt with in my 'hood and stuff/ Pro'ly 'cause my mommy Didn't compliment me much/ She just insulted me more often Than she'd ever shown me love/ And I know it f**ed me up Because whenever someone does/ It's hard to trust them, all I ever do Is shut them out and run/ Using d** just like a crutch Because I only light a blunt/ Whenever I'm in a rut And need something to cheer me up/ I'm always feeling stuck You'd think by now I'd gotten over it/ I've gotten older since And had to deal with f**ing homelessness/ The slits should've been closed They've had moments of exposure/ But I guess they're still open From my ocean of emotions/ Hopelessness is mostly What I'm feeling at my core/ Feeling ugly, like I s** And I'm unlucky to be born/ Like I'll always be a thorn That's stuck in somebody's form/ 'Cause no matter how hard I try I know I'll never fit the norm/ [Hook] [Verse 3: Swami Netero] I'm tired Of feeling low/ I got that fire in my soul And I'm about ready to explode/ Try to teach my mind to cope And stay focused on my goals/ 'Cause when I don't, I know I'm prone To feeling choked by all my woes/ Getting close to losing hope But it ain't over 'til I say it is/ Mood's a rollercoaster And I'm in the operator's pit/ Could hit the brakes quick If any minute it gets dangerous/ Just got to stay awakened And patient during the major dips/ Know I'ma make it Just got to concentrate on progress/ 'Cause even the longest walks Are accomplished by the small steps/ I know it's a far trek But once I'm through the darkness/ The weight will be gone And I can finally let my arms rest/ Not far-fetched For you to want to be a better you/ Once you face your bruises Then you'll see that you can do it too/ You control the music of your life So think of lively tunes/ Or be stuck with the ugly ones You've always been accustomed to/