Hanstead - What I've Done lyrics

[Verse 1; Hanstead] I walk through the door and I see it and my heart sinks// There's a note on the side, to play with my heart strings// Hundred thoughts are going on, I need to have a hard think// God please no, there's questions to be answering// I run around the house, god I got to find her// If I give her one kiss, it will act as reminder// Checking all rooms, but she can't be found// So I grab the note, but it drops me to the ground// As I start reading, the tears are rolling down my face// I'm feeling so sick…I read it & it brings out the pain// I can't believe it's happening, I don't know how to stop the pain// So I keep on reading and this what she says// [Verse 2: Hanstead] I can't stop throwing up, I don't know what to do// How is this happening, I should have been watching you// Its all my fault, I should have been stopping you// I should have seen it coming, it wasn't a shock in truth// I wasn't there for you, this is all my mess// I should of just helped you, I've should of seen your stress// I can't live without, I'm sorry I've let you down// We would be together, if I respect you now// I know it's really hard for you, but always you and I// I know it's my fault, but I deserve more than suicide//