Halo Hitz - As You Wish lyrics

[Verse 1] I know I really ain't/ Been thinking clear this year/ Been doing a lot of accusing/ Been avoiding looking in the mirror/ But at the same time I've fixated/ On myself you'd think it more plain/ To numb the pain, I picked a vein/ Injected a vile vial of vain medicine/ And I've become aware, that my/ Recovery was slowed, and by/ This IV drip of bitterness/ It's had me barely alive/ It's like I'd rather clench these ashes/ Then trust and try to get past it/ I screamed in the dark that I hated your art/ But I forgot that the canvas was ma**ive/ [Hook] I didn't know, of that which I spoke/ Face on the ground, hand on my mouth/ You are wise in your ways yeah, You are kind in my pain yeah/ Put me back in my place yeah, I repent of it all and I say/ (As you wish) I ain't gonna fight no more, I ain't gonna fight no more/ 2x (As you wish) I ain't gonna fight no more, even in the night O Lord/ (As you wish) I ain't gonna fight no more, I ain't gonna fight no more/ (As you wish) [Verse 2] I grieved the d**h of dream, and it's hard to let go/ When atom bombs drop on you, you still hear echos/ Perhaps I was codependent, so much so I that I chose irreverence/ I don't gotta know why it took place; maybe the only closure is faith/ So I limp as I walk with this shrapnel in me, pray that my pain will magnify/ The most ironic of bombs ever to drop: the murder of God by wicked sinners to give them all New life/ I don't resent what you put me through/ I'd do it a million times to gain you/ I'll suffer when I have to/ It's all good if I have you/ [Bridge] No one can stop the good that you are purposing/ I won't say a word until I'm worshipping/ You know that I'm broken but I'm hoping now/ Explosions painting roses; only you know how/ [Verse 3] God Bless, the valley of the shadow of d**h/ I ain't bitter I'ma be better than ever soon/ God Yes, you're making beauty outta the mess/ I can't wait to forever be together with you/ Sitting in Heaven with my scars like/ Remember how He got us through the dark night?/ Nukes serve to reverse the curse; He works the worst to reveal His worth and it's Glory/