H.A.D - Regrets / Starting Over lyrics

[Hook:Had] From bottom to top We countin it up We never stop All this work we do We bound to get love So put your hands up, yeah We won't tell you what are plans are, yeah Won't ever stop Recorded a lot Did this all for a reason we Tryna topple these charts So homie stand up Getcha brand up [Verse 1:Hyde] Sometimes I think that every breath I've had is wasted Failure so pungent I can taste it I mean, I've had my moments of greatness But mostly it seems like I'm spendin' life trapped in the basement Waitin' for the day when someone shows up to take it I wished I'd lived a little more dangerously I wish I didn't let my fears decide my life so shamelessly I wish I'd wandered a little less aimlessly Trusted God a little more faithfully Accepted praise more graciously And hate more courageously Too many memories painin' me Every vein in me Strainin' to forget all the shame I see Everyone has regrets, but mine are chasin' me The time I've spent in my life waitin' complacently Could have been out there grindin' Livin' life and shinin' Could have been out there tryin' But instead I sat inside just hidin' k**in' time and “survivin'.” Countin' ceilin' tiles and rhymin' Now I just wonder where I'll be when I'm dyin' [Hook:Had] [Verse 2:Hyde] I used to paint these dreams of a life that was glamorous A couple million dollars in the bank, that was average A couple million callin' out my name, that I had to get A couple million records from the grave, that's that Lazarus But dreams was all they were And the hard work was a burden And the art perk wasn't certain The serpent's smart and he's lurking Sold me on the scene of a person with a purpose But stole my motivation and made me say I already earned it The target rotted away the reason I even started I creeped and plotted, but never reached what I wanted Broken hearted, fallen, but too numb to notice what had departed Lost it before I even agreed to the bargain Now I'm empty handed, standin' alone on this planet Damn it! I just wish I hadn't given up on all I planned I wish I'd practiced instead of demandin' Worked my a** off instead of just plannin' Just another regret that'll never vanish [Hook:Had] [Verse 3:Hyde] Funny how certain events can reset Everything you've ever thought, everything you've ever dreamt Too bad it's so hard to repent Regrets won't relent Tear down; prevent It's easy to regress And start going backwards Relivin' the same chapters But when you factor in the hazards of goin' faster Sometime's the answer's backwards And bein' last to heaven, beats bein' first to hell So I'd rather backtrack than have the worst to tell I'm not the first who fell Nor the worst to sell his soul to burst his cell Then thirst to reverse the tale I'm just glad to see the truth Can't change the past, but the future's new So I bid adieu to my milieu, so I can set out again with my path renewed [Outro:Hyde] I've wasted too much time chasin' somethin' I'm not I need you to know that this is all that I've got And I'm leavin' it And I'm startin' over Credits