Gurldoll - Buzzing Flies lyrics

{Spoken} "There is nothing left for me to live for. Y'know what I mean?" I bite my tongue, it's all a lie Don't wanna fu*king be alive I wanna fall out of the sky Probably won't even say goodbye I'll drink myself to fu*king death Or maybe swallow all the rest Of these pills, take these pills Just so I can fu*king feel alive Asking why? What's the point of even opening my eyes? Every day, all the same, why the fu*k was I born this way? All the same, every day, it's like this every fu*king day I'm using just to numb the pain, I want these thoughts to go away All these thoughts, it's gross Haunted by ghosts I always do the fu*king most I'm so dramatic, TV static I can't hear you, I'm alone I say the same thing, do the same thing Drink the same thing, every day This sh*t is stupid, brain polluted Won't these thoughts just go away? It's empty in this heart of mine It's full of dust, I cannot cry My soul just died, my brain is fried My body's running out of time I'm not someone to idolize This life isn't a fu*king prize It's dark in here, there's buzzing flies I think I'm running out of time I think I'm running out of time I'm screaming, can you hear my cries? My heart is beating so off-beat So help me God, I dare not weep Every day, I'm so defeated Gouge my eyes out, watch me bleeding Get me out my fu*king head I know I'm gonna wind up dead I bite my tongue, it's all a lie Don't wanna fu*king be alive I wanna fall out of the sky Probably won't even say goodbye I'll drink myself to fu*king death Or maybe swallow all the rest Of these pills, take these pills Just so I can fu*king feel alive Asking why? What's the point of even opening my eyes? Every day, all the same, why the fu*k was I born this way? All the same, every day, it's like this every fu*king day I'm using just to numb the pain, I want these thoughts to go away I want these thoughts to go away I want these thoughts to go away I want these thoughts to go away I want these thoughts to go away It's empty in this heart of mine It's full of dust, I cannot cry My soul just died, my brain is fried My body's running out of time I'm not someone to idolize This life isn't a fu*king prize It's dark in here, there's buzzing flies I think I'm running out of time