Grotesque - Coke Fiend lyrics

[Verse 1] I know it's been a minute since I dropped a new track But ain't sh** changed, homie, here's a news flash I'd still f** Nova Rockafeller's smooth a** And I still think Shizzy Sixx is a douche bag What? You 'bout to hate on me for speakin' my mind For writing down the way that I feel to finish it off completing the rhyme Nothing's what I'm leaving behind, meaning it's time They let me off my leash while I'm beastin' a rhyme, reaching my prime Back down you don't wanna go against tainted air If only you knew all the pain I was dealt and the way that I felt when I was made aware And to this day it was buried away, I don't even know why they would take me there They sure as hell thought they could make me scared crushed every dream and daily prayer Why? Why they gotta tear me down today Why? Why I drink on Jack to drown away Why? Why I sip on liqour down the drain Found a way to douse the pain, f** anybody who doubts my name [Hook] Cause I'm so dope that you'd think I was a coke fiend Poppin' OxyContins, drop 'em down with Codeine I'm so dope that you think I was a coke fiend Mixing Oxy with Codeine like it was protein I'm so dope, that you think I was a coke fiend Poppin' OxyContins, drop 'em down with codeine So dope that you'd think I was a coke fiend Mixing Oxy with Codeine like it was protein [Verse 2] I never set my goals high where the days go with no pain So how would I take a break and then come back showin' no gain? But every song is c**aine, lit matches and propane Oh hey, speakin' of which my fire is my flow game What the f**, why was I placed here? Probably so I could face fear, thinkin' that my fates near So I could get ready to feast but yet my plates clear Erased years from my life chasin' faint cheers Oh wow, everybody really thinks that I sold my soul now Between the shows and videos they think that I hold the gold crown So proud, rippin' a flow so easy show the whole crowd Raise my voice, gotta go so hard now I'm flowing so loud What the f**, rap is such a joke now Bragging about the hoes when half you rappers probably go down f** every local artist claimin' Chicago is yo town Got a problem with me call me out and we can throw down [Hook] [Verse 3] A yo lately I'll admit that I been slippin' out Sippin' out the bottle contemplatin' on a different rout Wish that I fixed the sh** that I did so my girl didn't have to sniff it out Wish that it didn't count, live with doubt, always trip and shout 24 and I'm still living in the basement All my years of patience with music, it feels I wasted Sick of makin' payments the bottom feels adjacent Sick of chasin' dreams and I never feel complacent Tell me what you say to a man who doesn't give a sh** Nope, not a little bit, oh, I'm so ignorant Tell me something that I don't know stupid I was in a decent mood but now it's "Oh so ruined" Now I catch myself hoping for the days end Scrounging money all around me just to pay rent Here's a penny for my thoughts, if you could take cents I doubt myself and it doesn't even make sense [Hook]