Grey Matter - Alone lyrics

[Verse 1] I wake up ready to face a new challenge Two eggs, a can of V8 to keep balance Early morning calisthenics just to keep myself right Can't improve my life without improving my health, right? Cause I could have been healthy as hell But couldn't pick myself up the last time that I fell Into these slumps that I constantly fall in Feeling like sleeps cousin always be calling And it's so cliche to hear somebody say that But that's how I really feel, f** it I'll take that So I finish my calisthenics, take a shower and dress And go to work, but f** work - now I'm depressed Because that job never really did pay sh** I hated it but I did what I needed to do and was patient Ain't it a b**h doing sh** that you hate? Just trying to put some food on your plate, I know you relate Working at a dead-end job on dead-end nights Trying to support what you feel's a dead-end life And when your hands are just about worn down to the bone It's time to go home, right back to being alone [Verse 2] And at home it's no different than work I deal with emptiness instead of only dealing with jerks Their lack of friendliness can get to me so bad that it hurts Well f** the friendly sh** cause that doesn't decide what I'm worth Cause I'm a human Being whatever that I believe in Living how I want to for any number of reasons But any one of those reasons could be the reason that I am Quietly unhappy and always being defiant The state of mind that I am in reflects my environment To change my environment, sh**, I've been trying it "you're failing." Falling with nobody to catch me Hoping eventually somebody would help me Open up to let the outside world in But no one's showing up, I guess I'm on my own then So f**, I deal with it and just get into the zone And adjust to always being alone [Verse 3] Alone in my thoughts, alone in my mind Alone without friends, alone and I'm fine But I'm stuck in this repetitive cycle I live in I do the same things everyday, and that's a given And that's not really living, it's more just like existing So I just exist in my meaningless existence Until I exit I'll fight with persistence For an existence with some type of fulfillment Alone or not, this what I know I got I march to the sound of my own drummers and stop My art's bound high, showing no signs of a drop And my heart pounds like I know that I'm all I got But it's cool, it don't matter 'cause whatever the case I can overcome any obstacle I face And I don't need extra complications in place To get in my way, invading my space I'll be alone then