Grey Matter - Breathe lyrics

[Verse 1: Grey Matter] From the day that I was born, until the day that I die I think I'll never have courage to ever ask you why You have me feeling like my life is a lie So I continue to try, and never let you see a tear from my eye And maybe cause I'm embarra**ed, but maybe cause you ain't worthy But all you did was hurt me, abandoned me, and desert me Left me as a ba*tard child And even when you saw me never took time to look past the smiles To see the pain that I was living with, so whom I kidding with? I know it sounds ridiculous, but I've envisioned a start Or rather a reason for you leaving And came to the conclusion I wasn't good enough for keeping So I'm sorry, I apologize to you! I never meant to cause you all the pain I put you through Maybe when I was young I must've made you mad Or done something that made you think I hated you Dad But I didn't, I promise, and still you left And left me alone and still as my breath And I couldn't breathe I'm still unable to breathe And if I ever have a child I'll be unable to leave Cause I refuse to keep love from flesh and blood Have them growing up in they mind with questions of Their past, wondering what they did wrong I pray to God that you don't hate this song, or hate me [Verse 2: Grey Matter] I'm sorry you had to leave me Dad Believe me Dad I know now that you didn't need me Dad And I accept that it's not your fault But you left Mom, too, and I blame you: that's all your fault I don't accept that, and still can't understand How could you leave her, she barely spoke English man! With two kids And me and my sister weren't even grown, a car that always broke down A low cla** home She worked two jobs, and what were you doin'!? Where were you at when we had nothing and nothing was movin'! Did you ever stop to think about what she was going through? Or how she abandoned her brothers and sisters to be with you? I bet you didn't You son of a b**h! The very thought of you would have me feeling like a son of a b**h Who up and leaves a woman when she needs you most! You f**in' coward, she had no one when she needed you close And that's real, and still you left, and left her alone to be as still as a breath And she couldn't breathe She's still unable to breathe And she was stuck with me and sis but was unable to leave Because she loved us, with all of her heart She held sh** together when everything seemed to be falling apart By itself She is the strongest woman on this earth But it's a shame that all the strength came from the pain and the hurt That you caused her Makes me wonder why'd you even bothered You should've left her alone the first time that you saw her Cause I rather not be born than cause a struggle for my mother And I love her, but if she ain't met you she'd-a never suffered sh**, you're lucky that I still talk to you You're lucky that there's never been a time I've ever fought with you You're lucky that I don't do you like you did us and leave Cause with or without you We'll continue to breathe, and that's real [Verse 3: Grey Matter] Pop, I apologize I had to write this song But I'm a grown man, sh** I know right from wrong And you're grown too So I know you did what you had to do It's something you were glad to do, I shouldn't have been mad at you But still you never had to look my mother in her eyes And tell her how much you apologize for makin' her cry And that hurts Her pain is like a knife in my back It would've been nice to relax but I was fighting with facts And wanted to believe that you had a reason to leave And if you did, then don't explain it to me cause I understand I need you to know that I don't hate you Im not sayin' the things that I'm sayin' only to blame you I just got a lot to get, off of my chest sometimes I look at things and start feeling awfully blessed Cause I did see you a little, and for that I was glad I mean, Tempe never even met his dad! And that s**s, comin' up Never knowin' your Pop Makin' you so self destructive, you'd never know when to stop But, instead of focusin' on Blowin' the spot You would harness all the energy And you would know when you got Something better ahead of you, I hope everything I've said to you Ain't never offended you. If it did, I never meant it to I ain't tryin' to point fingers, and even later on in your mind when this joint lingers Don't be sad, but still you left To be left alone just as still as your breathe when you can't breathe Cause when you still unable to breathe, I'll be right there And I'll be unable to leave because I love you With all that I've got No matter what I'm always gonna call you my pop But I won't forget or be so easy on what you done to my mom And deep down I know you know you were wrong So I'll accept that