GrewSum - A Milion Miles lyrics

[Verse 1] Life changes sometimes it's too much It's amazing what time did to us I look around not knowing who to trust Knowing that I didn't but feelin' like I screwed up Life's harder suffered heavy Hit from my karma to left the crack on my armor There was a point that I could never take my eyes off her Now I wonder who she's f**in' like I might stalk her Then I taught myself down from that I'm better, never, ever bein' around in fact Write it down in a track, pop downers and drink Lay down and relax just surrounded by rap Music is the only thing that keeps me from losing it Abusing my body with d**, plus the booze isn't helpin' Move to a new city to lose it in Moved away so she couldn't see what she could do to him [Hook] I never thought it end up like this, oh no I'm feelin' milions miles away I'm so distant but that's just the way that it goes Don't tell me it'll be ok Not gonna act normal because I know That I'm not really willing to change I rather just explain the way my life goes And tell you why I am this way [Verse 2] Happy new years, oh sh** another one But I gotta though it out cause I love my son The easy move it be to f**ing run But if I end up runnin' to the substances I just end up a drunkin' bomb Rap needs me, and so does Shane So I tuck it away, and I won't complain This happy face hides a tortured brain But there's a lot of people like me who are sorta the same No pity parties for me, we really party I'm missin' Carlie but honestly we We're really hardly happy acting like it's promising please I'm too accepted fell apart and just go hard on these beats It's gettin' harder to sleep Cause I don't know another way to make a better life My head is right where it needs to be with this pen I write Focusing on the future so much and tryin' to get it right But when I cut the lights I can't even sleep in my bed at night [Hook] [Verse 3] I've become a different person entirely Tryin' to speak on my life and how it inspired me If I was composed there's no tellin' where I would be I probably be better off lost in sodomy I've always spoke my mind, I've always been honest Told people the truth they never really wanted It's funny how bein' real made me become a target To faker artist who hate me cause I've made a market Being weird, being ugly and being me Being harsh, being drugged up and speakin' clean Making songs about horror parties and cheffin' green Take take offense because I'm comfortable with being me And they gotta fake it to make it Paintin' up with makeup and contacts And on tracks they always claim they're creative When they're just imitating the greats to made it work f** fakin' to make it, I'mma stay a jerk [Hook]