Grayscale - Cast Aside lyrics

Once again I blew it all Just to feel that pain That makes me come alive Pushed you away As if I didn't care Cast the whole world Aside... My mind And nothing feels real anymore Not even this misery Nothing feels real anymore Once again The boredom came I had it all I threw it all away Drowned myself into the Gla** from which I drank Drove myself to the edge And pushed down And nothing feels real anymore Not even this misery Nothing feels real anymore Not even this misery Cast aside