Grave Flowers - Cold Despair lyrics

Tears are falling as I sit here again The night just has fallen and lonely I am I need to adjust myself and practise to be alone My mind is messed up and my head heavy as a stone I scream out loud and I wish someone could hear my despair I'm searching for some silence and I'm searching for some care Nobody really knows me who I really am I got so many words unspoken in my head Do you want to know what I fear Can you understand my tears I'm easy to bring down I'm everybody's clown Don't ask me to do things that I dislike I'm already feeling bad and worse I might I'm not much of a rejecter so I got myself to blame I'm weak and wounded and to that you can add lame I scream out loud and I wish someone could hear my despair I'm searching for some silence and I'm searching for some care Nobody really knows me who I really am I got so many words unspoken in my head Do you want to know what I fear Can you understand my tears I'm easy to bring down I'm everybody's clown Close my eyes, close my ears, close my mouth And I wish it all disappear I can no longer cope with this life And I'm so filled with fear Can you tell by looking at me That something is wrong I have eyes but the things that I see Won't please my mind