Grant Hart - Actual Condition lyrics

Well, the actual condition of my mind Is elusive as the answers that I find I keep going through transition From doubt to indecision It's the actual condition of my mind Well, the actual condition of my soul Sometimes feels like being s**ed into a hole And I've come to this position Regardless of religion It's the actual condition of my soul The actual condition of my heart Feels like two hands that are ripping it apart I keep losing definition But still I keep on wishin' It's the actual condition of my heart