Graft - Chapters lyrics

[Verse 1] All I needed was a rollie and I give you time I'm talking vice versa, would you give me yours Before I hit you in that doggie, have you on your paws This ain't fundraising, why it's for a cause People always asking me how that pain feels I just tell them over time man that pain heals I just tell them over time man that pain heals Now let me rap about the stress and how my brain feels Because I'm constantly thinking, constantly on overdrive Notice that I've lost 'nuff love for a load of guys The same snakes said they gon' f** my one and only The same brothers fist me and they tell me they're my homie At least I see their true colours I ain't cried in a while, my heart weeps for me I miss the days my mummy did the sheets for me Why? Cos I was happy then No toilet sk**s, I was pissing in nappies then I was young with my innocence Now I see my whole life wilding with divergence Bruv it's so crazy, I feel unsettled I'm sitting in my yard with my thoughts, man it's torture Respect for my brothers like Warner Cos every time I need them they really have my back And if I had 5 pound I'd give my brothers half of that But here I am, so stuck up in this sh** I try to never fear all the demons that surround me But when I'm walking home at like 2am I hear the the voices "Ah sh** here we go again" Then I'm back to Yefe's yard like it's tell a friend I'm sat there in depression, I feel the tears swarming in And at night I pray to God, I'm trying to call to him All a brother needs is love in this life of sin [Bridge] But don't he hear it in my voice The pain, the struggle I'm looking for the sign with the exit Stress got me feelin' like the doors are just closing in I pray to God so I get close to him I've really lost faith I've lost hope in my journey I pray I see the days when I'm 30 Cos sometimes...sometimes I can't cope I'm feeling explosive like a mento in a coke and it pains me Nothing sweet on my mind like a starburst I've lost hope cos I'm walking with a damn curse I'm trying to find answers and I'm looking for myself Tell me have you felt stress where your body feels physically sick And the pain in my back from the stress used to burn me Feeling really old like I was damn Granny Shirley [Verse 2] Stress had me tired, I was gasping like I thirsty *gasping* I been up and down, mindset irregular Way too out of range for that focus But I'm too mature for that bogus I need a better spell in my mind, hocus pocus And I've had a battle in my mind for some time now Music be the way I express and unwind now Let me rap deeper, I was in the car with my mum and I was crying This was like Year 10, and those times I walked with fear then Everything was such a shock, I was frightened from a knock I told my mom, I'd never give in, I was adamant And at the same time I felt a grip by the devil Then I cried more, I was crying on my knees in my room floor Life can be a misery, I hope it never sickens me I'm just praying that the stress will never get rid of me I'm only 16 and my mind's like an old man's I'm collecting wisdom when I'm talking to my old man My brain carries pressure like I'm walking with a whole gram And who woulda thought that life's channels ever came with this program It's so sad, I'm carrying pain in my own hands Sometimes I can't sleep, man it's deep Devilish thoughts got me retracting from sanity Sat up in my room in sheer darkness Need to find myself got no time for partners I-I-I read scriptures in need of any guidance Looking for some help like there was sirens Plus all the pain on my brain is traumatic Fighting off demons every day, it's so frantic [Outro] Mind of a novel I promise you can call me I always keep it real when the words my mommy told me I've seen real and I've seen fake love I know care and I know fake hugs I reminisce to all my better days I try to find ways so I can elevate Time is too precious So if something ain't right do we seperate So if something ain't right do we seperate