I think that people like her, me, you - if we don't have something that gives us some joy that gives us some creativity, that gives us some outlet - you will become an addict. And it isn't the dumb people - yeah theres a lot of f**ing losers out there. Who smoke pot everyday in their yo-yo. But theres some brilliant minds out there that were destroyed and mine was one of them. I mean I'm still here. But oh what I could have done here. I pictured myself standing on a podium talking to Thousands. Being inspired to say the right things. If only they could hear me.