Gov't Mule - Gordon James lyrics

Hey Gordon James Why'd your momma give you two last names Did she have expectations for you Did you let her down like we knew you would do Gordon James,I know we're all subject to change But you were way too young to lose your soul They say you traded it away Did you think you could just buy it back someday Gordon James Were you too busy ducking the blame To realize that it's you we now fear Maybe someday soon it will all be so clear Were you lonely, yeah we were all lonely Were you scared, yeah well I'm scared too Did your dreams turn black or Did you sleep like a child Did your heroes die off , leave you alone in the wild Or is this just the path that you choose Were you blinded, yeah we were all blinded The trick is, they say, to heal yourself Did you just let go of the reigns one day Let the ocean's current wash you away Were you all alone when you fell Gordon James Did your momma die from the shame Was she trying to pull you back into the light But you were way too far gone to save Do you even visit her grave Gordon James Do you think it's too late to change To make up for the lives that you bought and sold And the war machines that you traded for gold Could this be the day that you pray Do you think it really matters anyway