Ghostbusta J - The Bottle lyrics

I'm tired of battling, this unrelenting struggle Its like my head is ah burning from chewin the acid bubble Gloom of the day, light of this night What am i so worried of living life out under the sunlight? It clenches and tears, deep within your soul Ripping all emotion cold, like a Vietnam vet: AWOL Ya fought hard so you could not live your life While burning hearts beyond repair, its part of the strife Daily awoken to mediocrity, a head-ached guise of pain Support gave wain as bridges fell; once sustained Lying is easy, when youre dealt cards in this way Its happens when you playing by the dealers vicious game Found comfort in nothing, found solace in thinking Found time has been sinking myself beyond a re-thinking 10 years running no where, 10 years ran by far 10 years looks good sippin vodka in a car So as I pick up the bottle, and consume my only pleasure Please lemme continue to tell ya, thats from you which I measured So sad it see, So sad for me But dont you worry any more cuz ya won't be hearing from me And so, I lift eyes to the sky I finish the bottle, then tears begin cry Its as if my emotions are running from afar Screwed down within this jar Where the f** is my star? Turn up the beat and I will make ya see clearly Relationships are overrated, hell, they're kinda scary... Turn a sane man crazy, add a lil liquor to the mix Next thing he does is flip it into the lunatic College educated, very underrated The visions and dreams which, reside within in my mind Are slowly taken and stolen, by this overdose of dimes Nickel this, quarter that, dollar menu on my mind Lost in reason, lost in time No need to write you this rhyme, cuz I suppose I just been speaking, the words of our time And I got nothing my pain... The brain is going insane... Prisoner of a love restrained... Dont talk to family, its strange Im just roamin round empty, with nothing to gain With no soil to step on, the ground is alcohol stained I'm losing the battle, and the war is caving in... Next step I gotta take is fight the systematic struggle within Just sick of me, And Im sick of you Sick of everything, that I put myself through Just show me the light, And I will show you fight I will show you how a f**in man battles through... These struggles, and everything that we do It doesnt matter anymore, cuz theres no issue with you You seemed like a friend Running hand to hand Partnas till the end Destiny we'd mend Like all things we believe won't ever end, I gotta find myself again So I throw you away to my lonely garbage pen Lock you down real tight, as you hit the metal side I can hear the crash, a shattering of gla**, finally delight Take a deep breath, now everything seems semi-right Head is so clear n I can see, so why now you singing your song again to me? I threw you away I said to stay away I said to GO AWAY You're demons are decay!! But I always did love your, intoxicating embrace It was with you, in which I found my righteous grace I suppose you might be right, just one more night Open you up, to sip and seep you back in my blood again I can't quit you again, my dear n closest friend A hangover is worse, without you here, to mend... This saddened fragile heart, lost in the dark I tip you to my lips, surrender to your kiss in bliss... Its love again