Get The Shot - Expiation lyrics

Dear mother I'm a terrible man I stare at your picture with a gun in my hand You're still the one thing that's keeping me alive in what they call home Somehow I still feel alone Under that black sky, it all feels the same And every failure justifies the epitaph on my grave “He was a good man just not enough to keep him safe from himself” I guess that's what it would say ‘Cause when you lose all, you realise that Some things will always be more precious than life While everyone lives unworried and carefree Sometimes it feels like you'd be better away from here What happened since the day faith left is a blur But I remember wishing that I was dead instead of her Don't ever ask me to serve as a model Wish I could be a man and learn to pa** the bottle (XXX) I need a new plan before it's my time To raise the flag and kiss this hateful place goodnight It'll never want me, it'll never need me, it'll never love me Let down and cursed to be jaded With NO FATHER, NO GOD Another day as shark bait I face d**h with eyes wide open all the way So let the wolves in, no matter how far it gets me I fear that no one can save me