Fukkit - 19 lyrics

[Verse] I looked god in the face Tell me why you made me Mamma never praised me, yeah that sh** phased me Now I'm full grown Styrofoam cup labeled All I know is pain and yet I'm still so thankful Thank you Being in the mud taught me so much about the dirty I did Xanax on the regular, I never lied in 30 Don't get wordy, I know you n***as heard me You running with a thoroughbred, n***a no derby I learned to fend and fight by myself For that reason I don't really think I need your help I was 13, all I ever wanted was a belt Hang myself by myself, show my people how I felt In retrospect, I just wanted respect, I wanted to be treated like the motherf**ing best Now I'm 19, still I'm getting treated like the rest And at 19, I a'int ever think I'd be depressed And at 19, still I do not know what to expect And at 19, all I think about is when it ends And at nighttime all I think about is having s**, cause in that moment all I feel is pleasure not neglect