Food For Animals - Grapes lyrics

[Verse 1] I see oxygen - doctors and nurses in my house Around the clock again - you in pajamas rockin' Sweatpants and moccasins - me, Ben, and pap just watchin' it I'm really losin' marbles - wringin' out and blockin' it out Words are gettin' lost in your mouth I can't find them in mine, but you know what I'm thinkin' 'bout Love just got the drop on me - big gravity Weight on my chest, but you serene Eyes fluttered like half of the south - without a doubt When I walk I hear the change in my pocket like a tambourine 'less I smother the tones with headphones Being in public alone easier than bein' home Lookin' at your short grey hair - kinda lonely Takin' flash naps and gaspin' for air All that I can do is chill and hold your hands while I'm there Speak quietly and hate the fact that I just get to wait Try to speak - it's like the language fell out of my face So I put slogans and grunts and sh**ty raps in this place It's like the language fell out of my face And so I put slogans and grunts and sh**ty raps in this place [Hook] Because my momma to me comes number one (x3) Because my momma to me Because my momma to me comes number one (x4) [Bridge] And now every time I hear the word cancer I need a cigarette I'm not sure I get it yet (x2) [Verse 2] But either way ma' the smoke from my mouth makes moves in your honor Sit back and watch it wander - watch it buckle and swerve And make shapes like a thin gray muscle Most strength that I got - tryin' to touch it It was all in a day's breath stickin' to the thought like Magnets that you got a couple days left Now I'm bugged out and flippin - actin' so whack To my people so they actin' cold back And now every time I need a little moment I take a cigarette The ultimate in "be right back" solution - and a kiss(?) I open up my chest, take breath, feel pathetic and blessed Mostly straight-up stressed - I'm thinking less and less about Anyone but you and now I'm obsessed with d**h And the panic and the void and this ice on my breath And now I'm talkin' to my hands like they were God 'Cause there's not one, and knowledge is hard You know that I would love to see you winged out Fresh purple capes - William Shakespeare feedin' you grapes That's a fantasy, and I don't f** with none of that sh** Just miss you, and I can't hide the shake in my lips 'Cause of you I had a childhood the size of the sky 'Cause of you I'mma feel nice and warm 'til the day that I die Had a childhood the size of the sky, and Ben did too [Hook] Because my momma to me comes number one (x7) Because my