Follow My Lead - D(e)ad lyrics

You waste yourself like you waste us all Still she swears it's not your fault She clings to the thought it keeps her alive But I see through your f**ing lies Can't you see the fury Pouring from my eyes k**ed everything you've ever loved Why couldn't you have died And all this time spent wondering If everything we had was just going to f**ing be okay was a waste I've fallen so, so far since then I wish you could just look me in the eye one last time before the end And see how much I f**ing miss you I've fallen so, so far since then It destroys me just to see you To even look at all The sight of your broken soul Every time you fall Can't you see we need you father I don't care if you can't walk I just need to see your heart intact You can make this stop But f** you are far fallen From where you once stood proud Why the f** are you laughing? Do you find me funny now? And all this time you've moved your tongue Trying to get inside my head And all this time all I could say Is how I wish that you were dead And you've been suffering for so long And of course I f**ing care But you won't ever f**ing hear this song You act like we're not even there I loved you once but now I can't recall The man you used to be Or were you ever even man at all You're only ever sick in my memories How could you forget That once upon a time you f**ing loved us to d**h I can't just forget about you It destroys me just to see you To even look at all The sight of your broken soul Every time you fall Can't you see we need you father I don't care if you can't walk I just need to see your heart intact You can make this stop But f** you are far fallen From where you once stood proud Why the f** are you laughing? Do you find me funny now? And all this time you've moved your tongue Trying to get inside my head And all this time all I could say Is how I wish that you were dead I can't just forget about you I can't just let all of this go I can't just forget about you I can't just let all of this go I can't just forget about you I can't just let all of this go I can't just forget about you I can't just let all of this go Father I am alone here You never showed me how to be a man and Father I am alone here I'm doing the best I can Father I am alone here You never showed me how to be a man and Father I am alone here I'm doing the best I Father I am alone here You never showed me how to be a man and Father I am alone here I'm doing the best I can If you can hear me father I'm so sorry I was just a boy and I was so so angry None of this was your fault I just wish that you were here It's been getting colder here year after year