Flower Politics - Anoxemia lyrics

I kind of miss waking up at 3 am Because I had no choice My biological clock was fu*ked I kind of miss staying up late to cry all the time Nothing much has changed in the big scheme of things I've just gotten tired Of being sad Being awake at bad hours When I was 15 I wrote a song called, "I'm more tired than sad" And I still think it can apply Except I've been sleeping so much I never wake up to see the sunrise I talked about standardized tests but now they dont phase me I talked about being depressed but now its leaving For the moment Just for the moment I used to wake up early to do yoga Cry in my bed sheets Draw pictures of things Id never be I used to stay up late Make playlists Id later hate I used to not eat I used to not eat I used to not eat I used to but not me But not me But not me But not me But not me But not me But not me What is me?