tossing and turning all her thoughts are burning she can't go to sleep thinks she is dreaming although she is scheming a secret to keep years have flown by taking with them time she never had for her own now she plays house while her husband stays out on the town suppressed emotions thoughts turning backwards she sees a young man with a gleam in his eye both of them laughing and jumping as if they could reach to the sky with love abounding her heartbeat is pounding a message regrets is all that she gets if she opens her eyes suppressed emotions trying to hide feelings she keeps inside suppressed emotions eyes may reveal feelings she tries to conceal no need to awaken her dreams have all taken her where she longs to be without a care but the wave of her hair no responsibility would she have done anything differently if she knew what she knows now lost in delusions of a love that she never found suppressed emotions