Flawless Tracks - Feel Again lyrics

I always had a dream of being a movie star I want to dress the way the woman and movies are I Want to be the shootin stars with the shoes and cars But its truly hard when you don't know who you are, are, are I never fit in a popular crowd So what can i do so my dad and my mama be proud And friends talk about me when I'm not around But the pills make me feel like I'm on top of the clouds They say d** make it all go away I swear d** make it go all the way Today i got bully it was such a long day I swear shooting up the school is like the only way I hope I can trade my soul today for a new one to crucify You'll pray your car will flip over and you will die Or that your plane will crash because between you and I, Im to scared to be missed Hook: I wish I can feel I wish I can feel I wish I can feel again Touch something real again I Just wish I can feel What you say I wish I can feel What you say I just want to feel again Touch something real again Touch something real again 2nd verse: I hate when guy say that I'm beautiful I hate when guy say that i'm cute I hate guy tell me that I'm so funny I feel so ugly Cause beautiful girls don't stand alone honey I look in the mirror what the f** you want from me I look at my body and feel so disgusted My ex said i don't have enough tits I hate my f**in lips, I hate my f**in nose I hate my f**in hips, so I hate my f**in clothes I hate the way it fits, I hate the way it shows Everything I try to hide away is now expose When I hear the laughter Im the one they talking bout Im the one they talking bout When I hear the whisper Im the one they talking bout I swear I'm the one they talking bout Everytime I'm messin up Im the one they talking bout Im the one they talking bout Bet you if I die right now Ain't nothin to talk bout, no Cause I don't think anybody will notice, no I don't think anybody will notice Not anyone at all, no I don't think anybody notice, notice, notice, no I don't think anybody will notice Not anyone at all.. Hook: I wish I can feel I wish I can feel I wish I can feel again Touch something real again I Just wish I can feel What you say I wish I can feel What you say I just want to feel again Touch something real again Touch something real again Hey Every other day I cut my arm It's not because I love the pain It's because i just want to feel something I wish i wasn't so afraid to just cut the vain And love is so overrated oh i f**in hate it Im never the woman walking on lover lane I bet you if i die right now, you probably would'nt remember my f**in name would you I need someone to love me somebody to care Im crying inside, Im praying somebody can hear I mean every other cut is for every time I… I needed someone and no body was there I feel so worthless, I just need attention And this depression surrounds me in three dimension And when I dreaming I see demons with evil intentions And screaming isn't easing the detention Even my parents think i need intervention I need love They think i need d** I just probably need a hug Im praying they be the first ones to see the blood Before it go down the drain, underneath the tub But i bet they never notice