Flame Alkahest - You're Already Dead lyrics

[Produced by Flame Alkahest] [Intro] [Verse] Been depressed all my life, when the hells this gonna end? Tired of being tired and miserable inside my skin When I was a kid, all my friends were imaginary People couldn't come to my house, because my dad was scary Locked myself inside the room and I played with my toys Talking with myself, man I really didn't have a choice Started having thoughts of suicide when I was only nine Remember creeping down the stairs, late at night, I grabbed the knife Started hearing voices in third grade, they told me ima die During cla** they laughed at me and they made me wanna cry Had me thinking about d**h while the kids were on the slide Sitting by myself, on the bench, staring at the sky [Hook] That night he put the gun to his head He looked at me and “son” he said “there is no point, if you're already dead There is no point if you're already dead” That night he put the gun to his head He looked at me and “son” he said “there is no point, if you're already dead There is no point if you're already dead” [Verse] Middle school came along, sh** I never felt so lost Every body bullied me, they showed me who was boss At school they picked on me, at home they gave me bruises Felt like I was worthless, walking round just feeling clueless My mind began to shatter, started questioning reality I saw people around me but no one seemed to acknowledge me Nobody did talk to me, the voices they abandoned me I swear depression covered me just like a canopy Started carving up my wrist; blank expression on my face Physically I'm here but mentally I'm out in outer space They didn't understand, why I couldn't smile Maybe cause I spent too much time inside exile [Hook] That night he put the gun to his head He looked at me and “son” he said “there is no point, if you're already dead There is no point if you're already dead"