Fiphel - Consumed lyrics

[Verse 1: Fiphel] Now a lot of you are probably wondering where I am Just know I wasn't kidnapped, this ain't some sort of scam First of all I miss you, this may seem sort of wrong But I hope that most of you don't even notice that I'm gone I don't want a single person shedding any tears Just go on with life, like I was never here You never even met me, so I never caused you harm I never made you cry, and you never slit your arm And instead of me you met a handsome loving guy Who did all the things for you that I could only try He made all of you happy, he never told a lie He never left your side, when you just wanted to die He never got annoyed at you, even deep inside He knew what to do, at any place, any time He even explained to you the how and the why And you could clearly see God in his eyes I hope that God replaces me, with that sort of friend Who's there for the women and a leader for the men Enjoy life while you can before it ends Don't remember me or even think of me again [Verse 2: Fiphel] So back to what happened, and why I'm not around And why there isn't any body to put in the ground Here's a little story, so you can understand Who, what, when, why, and where I am Those last few months I was constantly writing That's why we didn't speak much after that one night when I irritated you again, with all of my questions I just wanted to help, guess I should have learned my lesson Regardless, my shrink says I fell back into depression I think my cynicism may have gave her that impression But I was just fine, maybe I stopped caring About my words and actions, or what I was wearing But I was spitting rhymes like never before Complicated cadences with clever retorts Some of it was serious, some of it was weird But it was all a waste, ‘cause one day I disappeared The cops told my parents I probably ran away But everyone who knew me knew that there was just no way At first no one at school noticed I was missing But no one even cared so nobody would listen It's only been a week, already I'm a joke Told behind the backs of those, who would choke The life out of anyone who mocked my departure If you only knew me, maybe laughing would be harder ”We've all had chances, now they've all vanished” I think, as I dangle from this bridge, in a panic As I strain against the frigid chains Trying not to let the pain take over my brain The lighter fluid's vile and nauseating scent Sends chills through me, makes my gut clench I scream past my instinct for self defense Flick the lighter on, suddenly the stench Of my own burning flesh shatters my resolve As I fall I unleash a dying desperate call Nobody can hear my cry except for God And I already told Him that this d**h is what I want I'm truly alone and with my dying breath I apologize for being such a nervous wreck My personality is only one of my regrets I dedicate to rap all that I have left [Verse 3: Fiphel] The raging sensation in my muscles was replaced By a frigid wind that ate away at my face I tried to look up, realized I was blind I felt an all too familiar presence in my mind He spoke to me, he said “Welcome to my home There's millions here with you, everyday we're growing” I replied “Others? Then how come I'm alone?” He chuckled to himself and he handed me a phone I couldn't sense his presence anymore but I knew He was watching me, he wanted to see what I would do I was betting he would only give me one call So I dialed home and left this message for you all Just so you would know, that I chose this for myself I sold my soul to rap, it's too late for you to help Just burn all of our memories, it's time to say farewell And I pray that when you see me next, YOU won't be in hell… [Hook: Fiphel] I've been consumed by hell