Part 1 [Verse 1: Detalks] And as the days pa** by i give it my last try to grasp life but it's a sad conclusion mad confusion in my head stayin in my room Since i'm crippled to my bed feels like i'm livin' with the dead and i can't be seen it seems that no one understands me Not even my family knows of this insanity i can't relieve this f**ing anxiety so i try to breathe but all that does is tire me So i try to solve my thinking problem with my drinking problem and my drinking problem just brings me problems and my mom Keeps tellin' me stop it but i'm an addict to the habit and i just can't seem to drop it and it's not an easy topic to talk with people to Cause they think they see right through me but soon they'll see the truth cause it won't be long before i'll be consumed Either by the bottle thirst or my thoughts...but let me have another on the rocks first...cause i don't think i can feel any worse Part 2 [Verse 1: Detalks] Feels like i'm swimmin in the water and i'm havin trouble stayin afloat there's only a remainder of hope hangin' from the rope Tied around my neck while the gators wait below and soon i'll be consumed and chewed into the blackness this never ending sadness Will be the ending of my madness but I ask if that would really be so tragic since everyone around me continues to act plastic They tell me that this is the reality but it's troublesome to grasp it so I end up getting trashed to turn myself elastic Fantastic another f**in' hangover to keep my brain occupied often my mind rots inside from all these awful lies I'm sinkin' to the bottom wanting for my thoughts to rise...but the bottle dives deep into the depths of my troubled mind