Fear Cult - If You're Watching lyrics

I think I've found what I'm looking for... Behind those eyes and open door... That vacant stare, which I adore... I'm your s*ut, and you're my who*e... Spare yourself the aching heart And spare yourself the pain... Let us just makebelieve It's yesterday again... And mother, if you're watching, look away... And mother if you're wondering But don't know what to say... Mother if you're watching, look away... Just look away... I think i found what I'm looking for... So hit the lights, and shut the door... Listen carefully, here's the score... I'm your s*ut, and you're my who*e... Spare yourself the aching heart And spare yourself the pain... Let us just makebelieve It's yesterday again... And mother, if you're watching, look away... And mother if you're wondering But don't know what to say... Mother if you're watching, look away... Just look away... It sometimes makes me sick inside... Ashamed of a life that I must hide... I know you'll never understand... I'm sorry there's no wedding band... But deep inside there's still that child... Innocent in a world gone wild... Obediant of your moral code... Scarred by a Christian overload... But still I live by truth and love... I still have hopes in the above... I still have interest in the cross... But mother if you're listening, shut it off... Mother if you're watching, look away... Just look away... Just look away... Just look away...