Fault Lines - Self / Destruct lyrics

I just wanna sleep for a whole week Pinned to the sheets I'm a slave to what I choose to be It's a shame that I feel so free Need another pill Need another clip Need another gla** Need another hit The thought of quitting just makes me sick Its not clear and I can't get it out of my head No! Can't get them out of my head It gets under my skin I'm giving up giving up I've been trying my best But I can't seem to make this right I won't let go You'll never know what's in my mind (Well here I am) there you are Thought there'd be more to this than These meaningless words and scars But I was wrong Tell me Why I'm in this unforgiving place I know I've been Guilty every time I'll take The blame for all the moments That I wasted Wasted all my life Think too little feel too much I try to push it out Try to push it out But it'll never be enough Tell me how much greener the gra** is on the other side Quit making this harder than it needs to be I'm losing my patience with my reality (Pre-Chorus) I'm giving up giving up I've been trying my best But I can't seem to make this right I won't let go You'll never know what's in my mind (Well here I am) there you are Thought there'd be more to this than These meaningless words and scars But I was wrong Tell me Why I'm in this unforgiving place I know I've been Guilty every time I'll take The blame for all the moments That I wasted Wasted all my life I thought I told you That this would happen You've got a head filled with doubt Now you can't find a way out I thought I told you That this would happen Sick of this sh** gotta cut the chord right now Self induce sleep like I always do I never wanted to let down all my friends and family, please stay away from me, I've got the worst intentions I've tried to take my life but the devil keeps me here because I'm serving him somehow... Relieve me, relieve me please, I'm f**ing desperate and I just wanna leave Tell me Why I'm in this unforgiving place I know I've been Guilty every time I'll take The blame for all the moments That I wasted Wasted all my life