Fat jon the ample soul physician - Dreamers lyrics

[feat. Mai Khalil][Intro:] This one is dedicated to the dreamers Most people see things that are there and ask why Dreamers, see things that aren't there and ask why not I'm dreamin' with you[Verse 1:] I once knew a girl who on the surface was as solid as a rock Future full of promise and mind seemed stronger than a ox Face of beauty and a tongue was as honest as it got That wasn't what is was, problem rock bottom she was lost I couldn't see this sweet genius was full of secrets Full of demons that pulled her deeper in this pool of leeches Confused by the news, I was bruised when they told me It concludes to the truth, was she consumed by the loneliness? She was a true queen, nothing like Elizabeth Often caught her starin' into space with a distant look Considerate but detached from others even when intimate Now I'm searchin' for answers I'd never find in a book Last time I saw her, before the day she took her life I wish I fixed her pain, I shoulda, coulda, woulda tried But I took it personally and turned to leave And to this day I'm still haunted by the words she screamed...[Hook:] Sometimes I really really hate myself Sometimes I wish that I could change myself Sometimes I don't wanna give no more And sometimes I just don't wanna live no more Sometimes I don't know where to go for help Sometimes I don't really know myself Sometimes I wish that I could fly away And find away to a brighter day[Verse 2:] They say that life is a question and d**h is the answer But Niko lost his brother and Rewds lost his father God bless your souls please know that I love you both They say time heals but the pain still doesn't go I've seen my brother die and seen my mother cry Seen the wind change in the flutter of a bu*terfly Seen people get sectioned for life, I think and wonder A small twist of fate, that could've been my brother 25 years a life could say thus far I always have wondered who the same ones are Though I live by the words fear not I'm afraid When I wrote this so many tears dropped on the page It's mad how d**h always manifests in the weirdest ways Won't go near the grave but in my dreams he appears the same Then I get closer and see his face, it's clear as day He looks me deep in the eyes and I hear him say...[Hook:] Sometimes I really really hate myself Sometimes I wish that I could change myself Sometimes I don't wanna give no more And sometimes I just don't wanna live no more Sometimes I don't know where to go for help Sometimes I don't really know myself Sometimes I wish that I could fly away And find away to a brighter day [Repeat]