Farewell Fighter - Growing Pains lyrics

Remember when we were young We got so good at being bad We would shake responsibilities so carefully And would protect everything we had We'd spend our days outside Waiting for the sun to set so our stars could shine And we would dream of better times Maybe I was holding on too tight Every day I get lost in a world that's in the way I'm who I am, the wannabe 'Cause when I think about memories I never seem to see the missing piece And now I'm starting to believe That it was always me I try not to panic But panic is all I can do when I feel confused I'm drowning fast in all of the sad excuses I have used 'Cause all the lost balloons That you and I let go too soon Were much too ?? to see Every day I get lost in a world that's in the way I'm who I am, the wannabe 'Cause when I think about memories I never seem to see the missing piece And now I'm starting to believe That it was always me Was it always me? It's something so risky Something I'll never feel Maybe some day in time I will understand But the tables are turning And both ends are burning I think it's okay 'cause the burning is all I am Have I been standing in the dark too long to tell? Have I been living with my eyes shut tight? Or just hiding far too ? Every day I get lost in a world that's in the way I'm who I am, the wannabe 'Cause when I think about memories I never seem to see the missing piece And now I'm starting to believe That it was always me I know it was always me