FannyPack - Not This lyrics

I'm still takin the train and My metro card's empty The windows of the stores when I walk by tempt me I was on MTV but I don't have a Bently F*** it in my pockets I barely gotta twenty Dollar bill but I go to shows And make you holla still I gotta pay my bills and it's not like Prada will I go to the check cashing spot Will I always be a have not Never gonna live in no lavish spot Always gonna live at home with mom and pop Shop at Old Navy and Payless I'm just tryna be honest that why I say this Hopefully radio plays this I doubt it though Yo pa** that Olde English Yeah I be rockin the discotech Every single night no self respect Sometimes I feel like I party way too much Premieres openings and shows and such but What else is a girl to do Go home by myself at 2 In the AM I'm sayin I'm not playin I'm doin the same stupid sh** and it's day in day out I know that there's gotta be a way out But I keep drinking and I just stay out At the hot spots with superstars and the hardrocks I wish that I could disappear to the boondocks Why not, maybe I'll hire me a pilot To take me away to the shade and I'll stay Get a slice at Ray's like we did when we was kids Something's gotta give real soon but it's not this On the real I be hatin myself sometimes I know you do too but it's okay sometimes I'm tryin to escape the grind sometimes It ain't gonna get better if I do some lines so Enough with the parties and bullsh** I go to the parties and bullsh** It never gets better when I do this sh** So stressed I wanna get up and quit It's like maybe tonight's the night and Maybe if I socialize I'll feel alright but those Never seem to be the best laid plans Never did I dream I'd go to foreign lands I just Wanna lay in creamy sands Doing nothin all day with my dreamy man maybe Buy that house across from the projects So I can stay trading gossip like stock tips It's not at the after party It's not in the hotel lobby It's not in magazines And It's not even in my dreams The things that I need Ain't in the vip Dont know what it is It's definitely not this