Fanaticus - 11-The Day After Tomorrow lyrics

PART 1 Awkwardly harboring judgments of what the audience sees Insecurities testing me. When confidence is all I see Hard to believe that I got it when they saw me for someone I thought I was But I wasn't who is above. Sad is the truth Sad is the proof, I couldn't find my proof, you was there and then POOF… Confidence left with you. Confidence left the truth Abrupt with no remorse too I'm sick of lying to myself, don't know what I'ma do When I was alone I'd look for you to recluse You'd think I'm bulletproof from all the shots I took from you, man fu*k YOU….Damn… I'm always breathing while hoping that I'll stop pleading And asking where you went, pa**ive aggressive anger pent up Can I smoke this blunt? And forget everything that did happen? And I guess lose all my reputation, hypocrite I could and I would be but I couldn't Peer pressure holding me to a standard of losing My friends are only tryna bring out the person I couldn't While music tryna be my friend and bring out who I wanted What I wanted, Freedom. Ohhh maaaan I wanted freedom It seems so pleasing to walk around with no ties to treason Light skin, dark skin, man we ALL black skin Martin didn't die for us to make a divison of our kin, and You know how many n***as doubt that I'm black because I have blue eyes? And that I'm persecuted because I talk white? That I ain't a brotha because I don't know the struggle, right? f** y'all, Small sh** is real sh**. I cla**ified myself a lost cause because I didn't fit in Ripped in and out, torn apart I couldn't shout My loudest cry to them was even more appealing man these masochistic f**s Can kiss my a** and keep it moving The amount of unnecessary because I was different Makes me scared and empathetic for those who had it worse than me… It's hard to see when I'm blinded by the media It's hard to be when n***as tellin me to come smoke this blunt Respect the fact that my edge is straight for a reason The future needs a guide to show them how to live without the poison Of cream, gotta get that money. Sell yourself to get that money Legal prostitution is to sign a contract that's removing All of who you are, so you can be a product that they consuming Are you used to who you're becoming? They eatin' lies, why you wanna feed em lies? Thought you hated being lied to. So why'd you lie too? I find it rude you hypocritical f**in lunatic. Blood on the leaves They use ya blood as the ink. Now you knee deep and while you sink You got the 5 stages of grief. Deny the action you speakin Get angry at those who tweakin' tryna get you out But you too stuck up like a dollar amount Be angry at ya damn self, because of you we never did doubt But you lost our trust, and now you know ya time is up And now bargaining. Actin' like I'm harboring a part of you Oh wait, when you left your decision was all on you Tryna tell me I was a part of you? But since you left I knew I was thru And I thought you knew it too. I see it in your soul The depths of the emotion that you felt man it left you so cold I couldn't say I didn't feel it too. But when you at a crossroads You gotta do it for you Was that when you realized there was nothing you could do? To salvage what you tarnished when you did recluse? I guess it's a mistake you gotta learn from If not now, when? The future we all spend the time Imaginin' what it could be it could be like so perfect But what's the purpose if we ain't preparing for our present PART 2 SPOKENWORD Why is my identity so hard to see, why can't I see you for who you are to be? Why is it that we're blind to our personality? Why do I walk invisible with my own disease, an appetite to be ethical? Asking questioning unethical, being ugly yet my mental strong I don't matter if my looks are wrong. Humbled pawn I keep my hand in my pocket; I stay silent, just watching I'm never schemin' stopping Holdin back my dangerous weapon cuz they ain't ready, my tongue is stronger than many My heart stay on the petty, that weak homie a teddy bear But never scared, Universal fear is non-existent Hard to listen if these words don't come with an 808 Kickin' Homie's try to blackball me because I continue to fight And all these haters stand up and don't even know what's right A constant plight that me and my people continue to thrive Complicated weather that we flyin thru but it's aight Turbulence and poison kept my homie's prayers uneven While I pray for him, hopin that he make it thru the seasons The power of greed will bring you to a place that's on ya knees Pleading for forgiveness as you ask the Lord to help you see Through the money trees, money brings Unwanted guests who try to clean my thoughts With currency I think I'd starve But they force feed me to stop me from speaking f** that it's treason, Just call me Ghandi I'm pleading For peace while protesting poor reason Keep wishin that these s**as will test me But me is only as we because we stand as one nation under God One nation under those who protect us, Hats off to all you protecters Y'all keep me rested Yet I'm still vexed up While I'm messed up Pickin' up the pieces tryna get dressed up for my future It's brighter Than I could ever conspire to be inspired is to be hired by a Spectral force that's higher than all of us, and to me that's alive and I'm grateful homie