Fanaticus - Letters From Chicago (On My Way Remix) lyrics

[Verse 1: Fanaticus] I just been driving, finding meaning Finding reasons to believe and I been breathing, I been dreaming Pleading, reading into seasons Tryna find a sanctuary Rarely wrong I'm always ready I'm steady ridin dissecting these stories so are you ready? You hearing what I am telling you? Best believe that I spit the truth Knowledge is power need some proof? Martin Luther and Malcolm too and This ain't new I know we grew up different but our lives we drew So watch me as I spit my entire life up inside this booth!! ...I'm young enough to be heartbroken... But old enough to be outspoken And old enough to see evil I'm not of ordinary people But legend says we're all equal But I believe that hate is lethal We create our own stories cuz we're all artists we're holding The key to a great allegory I'm asking God what's in store for me? I'm out here asking God what's in store for me? I'm wondering what I'm supposed to be? Hol' up we could be greater Than Kendrick eminem and drake and I know we all make mistakes But those f** ups will make us great It'll pave the road to our greatness This world is cold and abrasive This broken world I'ma change it, I won't be the only one to say it n***a we made it [Verse 2: Fanaticus] So what you fienin for? I need this money so I can be living glorious (but it became too much) I couldn't deal I turned to d** And if she settin' out you best believe I'm asking what she bout I know that I don't need it but I'm eatin (And she making sounds!) Double entends couldn't even mask what I've become Cold world around me frostbite and now I'm feelin numb And I don't care I got that silverware I'm really eatin' doe (I'm eatin doe!) And I ain't even got a chance to think alone I let this all define me now I'm writing what's all in my dome I made amends with all my friends this pistol's telling me come on Thinking to myself with all this sh** what am I living for? Became a slave to what I crave this luxury has got me sold Got me wondering when'd I get so cold.. Got me wondering why I'm out here all alone [Verse 3: Fanaticus] Vicodin in my system I'm high as f** now I'm pissing Away my future I'm missing while n***as is sneaking dissing So listen Nicole had told me You f**in up and they phony You need to sober up hurry and shake the game up McFlurry Now I'm worried that they don't give a f** They laughin while they smokin blunts My ex is f**in other clucks While tellin me I'm f**in up My friends is sayin that she f**in up She hittin blunts I'm sittin here On percosets that ain't enough I'm all alone I need a blunt I'm out here wondering what have I become I'm out here wondering why can't I run And Now I'm struggling I'm drowning in this ocean It's deep as f** I can't erupt I'm out here wondering what's gonna hold me up? In the ways of our lives Jhene had left us some lines Sometimes you gotta lose ya mind just to find your peace of mind Know that all we got is time There ain't no time to rewind [Verse 4: Fanaticus] And now I'm sittin' in Chicago alone Constantly checking my phone All my homies is on they own And I miss em all I kicked the habit for myself and all my homies My lil brother Wade told me I don't need the sh** it's not me And Jamil had told me pray on it My prayers wasn't answered quick But he was there my mom was there And Brandon told me not to dare I lost myself to this affair and now I'm better seeing clear I'm thankful for them being there While God had told me not to fear I brought myself out in the summer air Praising him for everything his glory did for me I'm blessed beyond this measure see My friends became my family And now I finally became free I finally became free Depression and anxiety had covered this side of me I'm glad to see that there's people who love me for me and they believe in me Thank you