False Ego - Golden lyrics

Goblin, golden, stuck on repeat I started writin 50 verses, like 16 a piece I calmed down, cooled off in the moment of heat The pain came so natural like words and a beat Now I'm sittin with my friends and playin it off My brother asked me what's the matter when hearing my songs Now I'm sittin all alone cuz I'm missin my mom How could I be so suicidal but lookin so calm No one would listen to me I'm tryna tell my story, just in a lyrical piece Now my haters dissin cuz they ain't f**in with these But I don't really care cuz you f**ers won't listen to me Well thats fine Cuz it's all in my head Now it's f**in up my mind like couples in bed When alone Eyes glued to my wall Waitin for a text message like lottery calls I don't talk cuz my music is sayin it all Tryna play it off cuz the music was turnin me on But these kids won't listen, they hatin my songs Just because I'm different and I don't have a dad or a mom I'm makin true raps about my life And I really don't wana have to lie But people only like you if you crazy or hood It's a shame you only like it cuz your friends say you should I changed a lot, ever since I made blessed After mom died I used to wear a cross on my neck I held that cross to my chest, I even wore it to bed I miss her so much, I can't believe that she's dead Then my sis took me in I wanted my life to end But little did I know it was about to begin And I hate that we argue Ur like a mom so it's awkward I started hatin that too But I love you I couldn't do it alone My aunt and uncle put us all in a home My brother went off to college and he lived on his own If you think he didn't care then your horribly wrong Because the bond that we have is credibly strong And the story goes on I started writin everyday so the story is long I wana be inspiration for people like me I don't want these people to just like me for lyrics and beats Please I'm just speaking aloud I keep my songs to myself, your just hearin the sound I keep my feelin in, they ain't hearin me out I'm sorry if I'm rantin, you're hearing me pout I'm just tryna be myself Never lettin go to what's real No matter what they tell me I'll never let go on how I feel This music, the art I'll never lose sight of what I see I'll never forfeit what is meant to be I'll never lose sight of what I see I'll never lose sight of what i see cuz What i see is me