Eyedea - The Breaks lyrics

Dear Mrs Burden This is very hard to say, but I sincerely hope that you're doing alright I know my attempts will never ease your pain But since it happened I truly haven't slept a night I'm haunted by her innocent face Each breathe I take reflects my mistake I never wanted to be the end of someone's fate Mrs Burden, these scars grow deeper every day I know tomorrow she would have been eight If it wasn't for my irresponsible methods of escape I understand why I'm subject to your hate But I swear she came out of nowhere and by the time I hit the breaks it was too late Crashed, crumbled, the castle in my head My body froze when I saw that little girl was dead And on the side of the road I heard the mother crying At the corner of ignorance and life I ran a stop sign I wish I could go back in the past and not drink that last gla** The day altered eternity and I can't stop thinking of how it probably wouldn't have happened if I wasn't drinking And now I swallow this holy water I'm sorry that I murdered your only daughter I'm not writing this to gain your forgiveness, but only to show my suffering as honor Oh why did I survive and a child died. I wish it was the other way around She had so much ahead of her, so much to live for, and that so much is nothing now Mrs Burden, Mrs Caroline Burden, I don't expect my apology to bandage your burns But each instant of remorse slowly eats its core of my heart If I'd have only kept my car parked Now every time I close my eyes I hear that girl's cries I'm not comfortably numb like the criminals you despise Even though I'm physically unable to run from it This jail sentence is the lightest of my punishments It was an accident and in hell I'm burning On my cell wall is a silhouette of one Velicity Burden Who was introduced to d**h at a young age of six In broad daylight a block away from where she lives I got off work early so I stopped at the bar Then not using my head I hopped in my car Intoxicated speeding home to surprise my wife and my child I was so close, yet so far away So now I swallow this holy water I'm sorry that I murdered your only daughter I'm not writing this to gain your pity But I hurt too, for god's sake Caroline, don't forget I was her father And I always will be And still am Sincerely yours with love forever William D. Burden I'm sorry, that's all I can say I'm sorry