Excel - Spare The Pain lyrics

I don't know what it is Inside me it takes the grip Never letting go, it plays its game Scrambling your mind, you're now trained I try to stop it but! It won't go away, I'm in its rut God! Please try to spare me! Take my soul and set it free It won't leave me be How can you set it free? Please help me Lord Spare my life, pull up on the cord Give me the chance to live The chance that I dreamt The chance to give If I knew for sure I'd Spare The Pain, that I endured I pray to God For His help What is wrong? Only He can tell [Repeat] Why can't this just go away? Is this the reason I have to pay? What's there to hold me back? Is this the way to keep intact? I don't know what's going on The life of God, please, don't be gone [Repeat]