Esta - Diamonds In The Sky lyrics

I watch the curtains open when im standin center stage In an empty room feelin claustrophobic in the space Starin at an audience, stabbin with a gaze Just a bunch of mirrors and not a single fragment is ya face Whats it mean when you dont seem to sleep enough to dream You can barely breathe, and so you stay inhalin like fiend Screamin at ya self, but it never seems to click And the thought of someone lovin yous enough to make you sick When all you ever ask, is what is wrong with me Can't meet my expectations,so what do you want from me My best is never good enough, me? im never good enough So i spend nights lookin up and all i see is [Jenny Suk] Diamonds in the sky, are colliding Tell me is it real, or is it nothin I wanna play among the stars Some how its so far Tell me if its real, are they colliding? First to laugh, first to crack the jokes Never tellin anybody that its just a way to cope Not tryna be emotional, I wanna clear my head Try to see some sorta truth, inside of everything they said Like you can be star, you can be whats in ya heart And if you want it bad it enough, you can get it at any cost But they never tell you, that they dont care about your failure You can fight for it all you want, its still not in your favor When its all said and done they go home with stacks of paper Not carin about the kids, with the thoughts to meet their maker When you grow up… all you got it what you dream of So i lay up on this concrete, askin god when will i be one [Jenny Suk] Diamonds in the sky, are colliding Tell me is it real, or is it nothin I wanna play among the stars Some how its so far Tell me if its real, are they colliding? I strive to be content with what i find inside myself Ignorin outer influence, just write it how its felt You say the verse is candid, snapshots from a canon True, Granted my perspective, view through my pair of shoes N parachutes, fallin yes, flourish next Regain your footin, let that be the final test Wear nothin on sleeves, but wear your heart upon your vest When you feel most vulnerable, thats when you'll be your best The hardest parts, discardin all the doubt you hold inside That its impossible, but you'll dont know if you dont try I tell myself the same thing, every single night This is my life and all i wants to be just like the lights [Jenny Suk] [x2] Diamonds in the sky, are colliding Tell me is it real, or is it nothing I wanna play among the stars Some how its so far Tell me if its real, are they colliding?