I'm out here searching for a person with a meaning I got a feeling I don't wanna find the truth Don't wanna waste it, wanna taste it when I'm sleeping But I see the devil's work in everything I do And there's so much left for me to prove But there's so much left for me to lose And I beat myself up black and blue What have I become? What am I to do? Can you tell that I'm dead inside? If you only knew And I can't find my way back to you No I can't find my way back to you If you only knew What I have inside What I've turned into Couldn't see the signs Now I can't find my way back to you If you only knew I'm up here cursing out the man that's in the mirror I try to shake him but he follows every move I'm going crazy fighting battles with a shadow Dance with the demons cause they play my favorite tune And there's so much left for me to prove But there's so much left for me to lose I fall further now with every bruise What have I become? What am I to do?