EOM - Clearer Days lyrics

I'm doing this for the love of hip-hop right here Nothing else I've seen clearer days Clearer days, clearer days Look I opened my eyes up this morning, awnry Wishing I could be in a postion to get money Not really on the type of level that I'm seeking I'm seething, that I can't be the one yall believe in I'm reaching, grabbing at something thats feeling flaccid So my hand slipped out, I could't even grasp it Fell of a cliff in my mind I was dissed And my eyes they went blind for the times I been hit I never wanna tell her that her lies that I miss But I always wish that she'd been moving them lips in my general direction Not down my erection but up my inflection when I see her step in, sh** I get so confused I can't do this My mind been trying to slice it up like Confucius Bash me in my f**ing head til I'm bruising Concussions I'm covered in doubt, hashtag losing She was telling me she thought I liked that other chick But she didn't know that underneath it, I was covering Why you think I kicked your door in? maybe just to see you naked So even if you hated me at least baby I could see that beautiful body, you dont understand In my eyes you're the most beautiful woman that's ever lived So when you spent some time to actually smile at me I was puzzled cause I thought you might actually contact me Why all this time drawing hearts in my notebook?