Engineer - I Know lyrics

[Skirmish] My whole life I was lied to That's the reason I've spent most of my whole life trying to find truth I'm suicidal, headed for my grave When I put the blades edge onto my veins Ignoring anything they say, all the jealousy and hate My character get judged from expressions on my face (For real) I'm thinking back and remembering the days But eventually my memories will fade And since entering the game (I know) Things will never be the same, the world gets pleasure from my pain My girl left and everything has changed Now my blood boils with every mention of her name (It's that deep) I'm torn between a devil and a saint Now there's countless doubts about myself embedded in my brain And I'm going crazy Surrounded by loved one's but I'm the only person that I know that hates me k**ing me inside, thinking I'm alive Living just to die Wanted to give up, pick up, run from home Uncontrolled was such in rush to grow There are so many people in life that come and go Very few people in life that touch your soul So, by giving up I'm letting myself down I question myself, am I heaven or hell bound [Hook] I know... That life's hard and it keeps getting harder I got questions I'm seeking an answer The truth hiding deeper and darker I know... That life's hard and it keeps getting harder I got questions I'm seeking an answer The truth hiding deeper and darker [Psiklone] My soul died the day I opened my eyes Exposing the lies and realized this world is colder than ice I try to take control of my life But gotta go with flow cos I know it's like the roll of a dice Lost all hope multiple times But I'm soldiering by cos I know it's my goal to survive Most of the night I lie awake facing the ceiling Can't fall asleep torn between angels and demons I'mma walk till I fall to my knees And if I fall I will stand tall like a man born to succeed Won't forfeit my dreams cos their worth the patience I take the burning hatred and turn it straight into determination The universe is supersized While our planets stupid curse is more human wrongs than human rights Religion's playing games It's the opium of the ma**es, so I take the lords name in vein We're all blind and cloaked in darkness It's a straight fact that nobody knows the answers Some trust in a holy father cos they were baptized Shame they need to fear God just to act right I guess that's life, its strangely tragic Just when you taste the magic, before you know it fades to blackness No one can know the facts But one things certain, nothing's gonna hold me back [Hook] [Possessed] In my life compa**ion is scarce I'm trapped and ensnared in this superficial Vanity Fair Where tyranny reigns I'm not comforted by phrases like "God works in mysterious ways" Hope deteriorates, the poor are getting poorer Submerged tenth, we're stuck treading water Depressive aura and corruption in the hearts of men Watching as half my friends turn into Harvey Dents Will I suffer in silence? (No) Born with half the blood but none of the luck of the Irish And I need radical changes Couldn't see the writing on the wall because my back was against it I hate this not thinking positively When we're taught with no college degrees, tomorrow is bleak I don't know what to believe God don't offer relief, the Devil keeps following me So, are there angels above? I pray for heavens inhabitants, hope that their praying for us Depression, it runs in my genes No matter race, colour or creed we, struggle to breathe And underachieve Alcohol arranged a meeting between my uncle and the cousin of sleep Suicide- the numbers increase When I go the whole f**ing globes coming with me so [Hook]