Eminem - Eminem - Deja Vu lyrics

[Intro: Male Medic] DMC, we have a mid-30's male found down, unresponsive. Possible overdose, substance unknown Pulse is 60 and thready. Respiration's 8. He's intubated, and we're bagging him now Uhh, BP: 90 over palp. Patient is cool, pale, and diuretic Has aspirated. Uhh, GSC is 3. We'll update en route ETA: ten minutes As I, fall deeper into a manic state I'm a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug addict trait Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate I seem to gravitate to the bottle of NyQuil then I salivate Start off with the NyQuil like "I think I'll just have a taste" Couple of sips of that, then I gradually graduate To a harder prescription drug called Valium like, "Yeah, that's great." I go to just take one and I end up like having eight Now I need something in my stomach 'cause I haven't ate Maybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and I'll have a steak And you'd think that with all I have at stake Look at my daughter's face "Mommy something is wrong with dad I think He's acting weird again he's really beginning to scare me Won't shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn't hear me And all he does is eat Doritos and Cheetos And he just fell asleep in his car eating Three Musketeers in the rear seat" Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know Feels like I been down this road before So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me As soon as I go home and close the door Kinda feels like déjà vu I wanna get away from this place I do But I can't and I won't, say I try, but I know That's a lie, 'cause I don't and why I just don't know Maybe just a nice cold brew "What's a beer?" That's the Devil in my ear I been sober a f**ing year And that f**er still talks to me he's all I can f**ing hear "Marshall come on we'll watch the game, it's the Cowboys and Buccaneers" And maybe if I just drink half, I'll be half-buzzed for half of the time Who's the mastermind behind that little line? With that kind of rationale man I got half a mind To have another half of gla** of wine, sound asinine Yeah I know, but I never had no problem with alcohol Ouch look out for the wall, aim for the couch I'm 'bout to fall I missed the couch and down I go looking like a bouncy ball sh** must've knocked me out, 'cause I ain't feel the ground at all Wow, what the f** happened last night, where am I? Man, f** am I hungover and goddamn I Got a headache, sh** half a Vicodin, why can't I? "All systems ready for take off please stand by" Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know Feels like I been down this road before So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me As soon as I go home and close the door Kinda feels like déjà vu I wanna get away from this place I do But I can't and I won't, say I try, but I know That's a lie, 'cause I don't and why I just don't know So I take a Vicodin splash it hits my stomach then ahh Couple of weeks go by it ain't even like I'm getting high Now I need it just not to feel sick, ya I'm getting by Wouldn't even be taking this sh** if DeShaun didn't die Oh yeah, there's an excuse, you lose Proof so you use There's new rules, it's cool if it's helping you to get through It's twelve noon, ain't no harm in self-inducing a snooze What else is new? f** it what would Elvis do in your shoes? Now here I am three months later, full blown relapse "Just get high until the kids get home from school, Holmes. Relax" And since I'm, convinced that I'm an insomniac I need these pills to be able to sleep so I take three naps Just to be able to function throughout the day, let's see That's an Ambien each nap, how many Valium, three? And that will average out to about one good hour's, sleep Ok so now ya, see, the reason how come, he Has taken four years to just put out an album, B See me and you we almost had the same outcome, Heath 'Cause that Christmas you know the whole pneumonia, thing It was bologna was it the methadone, ya think Or the hydrocordone, you hide inside your p**nos Your VCR tape cases, with you Amb!en CR, great paces to hide 'em ain't it So you can lie to Hailie "I'm going beddy bye Whitney baby good night Alaina" Go in the room and shut the bedroom door And wake up in an ambulance They said they found me on the bathroom floor Damn Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know Feels like I been down this road before So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me As soon as I go home and close the door Kinda feels like déjà vu I wanna get away from this place I do But I can't and I won't, say I try, but I know That's a lie, 'cause I don't and why I just don't know