Emɐnuǝl X - Silhouette lyrics

[Verse 1: Emanuel X] Gotta Stop treatin These hoes like wifey/ They don't love me they love The IDEA of a n***a like me/ The girls where im From have all Lost their appeal / So i Fly girls to my city to Find Somethin I can feel/ I wake up next to models who tell Me last night I came on too strong/ But I know she still loves her ex so she'll put the blame on me only cuz she feels that she's done him wrong/ (Mmm) They can't live with that guilt ------- That's just not how their built See, My focus Was Ladies/ And I was tryna swim in p**y Like rivers, Euphrates/ For as deep as I love myself Is as deep as they'll hate me/ The more the world paid me Played me and made it harder To save me/ Highway to Heaven In A Mercedes/ Cuz money streams only Made me drown in my vices/ And my stubbornness only Left My family adviceless/ The boy who loses the most Turns into the man who's wisest/ So I never questioned where Christ Is in the midst of this crisis/ I bought you those window seats Girl you better get yo pretty a** up on that plane/ She told me she wanted to f** and the only thing she knew of me Was my name/ [Chorus: Emanuel X] I am so tired of feeling alone/ I do not know what the f** to Call home/ It's been 23 years where the f** .../ Excuse me right now b**h I'm just in my zone/ [Verse 2: Emanuel X] Naked b**hes all up In my f**ing phone/ Never asked she sent Them on her own/ Ever have a model strip for you With a view of ya city in the back/ No? so don't tell Me how to act/ My mind packed but my Tongue flows in conversation/ Why she ain't ask If I had Kids, with no hesitation/ She said your pa**ion for What you love bleeds through/ So if you did that's something I would've known about you/ That sh** right there made Me feel like a f**ing man/ And 'till a woman values your Pa**ion you'll never understand/ Built my lessons on women from their common actions and tendencies/ So when I catch their lies They don't see the ammo They're lending me/ Establishing relationships That don't ever stay/ So when they fly home they Leave with a "why you live so far away?"/ I tell them I won't forget Them Only to be kind/ Because you might be on my Dick but you not on my mind/ I am so tired of girls Who lost potential only to end up an ex/ Cuz that pain stays deep in my heart and I just put the pain from the past on my next/ [Chorus: Emanuel X] I am so tired of Feeling Alone/ I do not know what the f** to call home/ It's been 23 years Where the f** .../ Excuse me right now b**h I'm just in my zone/ [Verse 3: Emanuel X] I hate seeing pretty b**hes That we grew up wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiith Get bagged by average n***as And fall off/ And f** all them n***as you With, they all soft/ So I got models in My downtown hall loft/ Well not my loft, I just Made reservations/ You got Netflix and chill I forward flight confirmations/ I like options and women Are My addiction/ Coulda been d**, alcohol Or poppin prescriptions/ Love her body But not Her influenced decisions/ So it's easy to read Her mind In regards of her intentions/ The night sky Over the city And her silhouette/ All lust does is k** you Slowly Like a cigarette/ We get what we Feel we Deserve/ So when I see you with a lame I stay silent and reserved/ Cuz that either says you Don't think highly of yourself/ Or you not in it for love and Only the appearance of wealth/ I am not naive I know that once You leave we probably won't speak again/ Cuz it's not realistic to live that far away and remain only as friends/ The beautiful ones always End up so lonely/ You know what I want girl I got enough homies/ You love to talk it But girl you gotta show me/ I ain't got the time to try to Take This slowly/ The things women do to try To get to know me/ None of these b**hes out Here can control me/ I'm in pain and None of This sh** can console me/ I'm lonely and this sh** Is k**in me slowly/ I'm talkin to you b**h I need you to hold me/ f** feelings my chain Icy like hockey goalies/ f** feelings my chain Icy like hockey goalies/ f** all those dreams That you sold me/ f** the old me dumb b**h This is the cold me/