Elusive - True Love Story lyrics

[Verse 1: Elusive] For me, it started with Katrina I fell in love, the first time I ever seen her But I was just a dreamer, see, I knew I wasn't good enough.. .. And I ain't know what I did, but I didn't mean to Make you hate me - I apologize Cause when I think of you now, I still get bu*terflies I thought you fit me like a glove, I wrote you the Cost Of Love But I guess by then you'd already had enough of all my motherf**ing lies Though I just wanted your attention And the only thing that, I forgot to mention Is when you sent me your life story, reading each sentence Made me realize, you really were the closest thing to perfection I would ever see, but I know we'll never be So don't get the wrong impression I'd of told you what I felt then But back then the only thing I ever really felt, was depression Cause in my mind I wasn't healthy Then I met an angel, that I thought could help me Ironic - the way I felt like I was drowning out at sea Until you came and saved me, Chelsea You touched my heart in ways I can't describe You were my guiding light, when all I felt was dark inside You say I gave you pa**ion, since then I've seen time pa**ing But I don't want the past, I just wanna be back by your side I didn't know if I could cope apart I love you, even though you left me with a broken heart But that was years ago, I hope that you hear me though Cause you were all I ever really wanted, right, from the start And I ain't lying, I'm trying more Some people said I was soft, but now I'm iron ore Cause now I feel like a lion, and I ain't waiting till I'm dying To let you know, that you were worth fighting for But that's over, and now I will address The next issue, cause I ain't doing this to impress I just wanna get this off my chest Cause if I die, then I just want you to know that I loved you, Jess But that's a ship that has set sail Exhale, didn't mean to let myself fail So I'm self-destructive, I guess that's what love did And I'm sorry, if I hurt you Abigail To k** myself though, I'll need a pistol People seeing right through me like I'm made of crystal Yeah, my life's been unlivable Though I ain't invisible, unless you're first name is Krystal Then it's one night of euphoria I never meant to hurt you though, enough of the historia I apologized, can't keep it secret I guess it's kinda funny after you I met Victoria .. And she was truly something else Fire is the only thing, that describes what I felt We were so hot, must of burnt out But when I think of you I still feel like I'm gonna melt .. So I'm sorry, I had to deattach I just couldn't let you see me, when I crashed To chase the light, I had to see a flash So I set myself on fire, just to be with Ash Cause we connected in a different way I'd been hurt before, but I thought she'd be here to stay But then it all changed, can't escape the past And through the pain, you were the only thing I pushed away So I'm the only reason we drifted Then I tried to fix what we had, but you resisted I insisted, hoping I would feel like you a**isted Love seems like a dream that never even existed Cause now we've lost what we had And I ain't saying this to try and make you mad Cause even though then I blamed you I have realized since that we were both, just as bad Cause I couldn't keep holding on You were the only one, until you had to run I'd been burnt before, but never felt the sun Until i had no one else to turn to but *edited* And she was there, when I was by myself So sweet, why'd I treat her like an inbetweener? But she reminded me of someone else So what I said to her, had more to do, with Katrina And now I'm sitting in this lonely room I'm talking to myself though, so don't a**ume That's a metaphor Cause next time that I say I'm falling, I ain't talking love I mean I'm gonna hit the floor .. It's been said before, I gave it new meaning This time I see through open eyes, because I'm through dreaming I mean I'm not asleep, but this hill I'm on seems kinda steep So I'mma keep on fighting while my heart's beating But now I don't who I'm fighting for I only know she's not fighting for me You were all I wanted, all that I adore But true love can only exist, if it's in a story..