Elusive - In The End lyrics

[Intro] Yeah.. I just want everybody to know.. I don't mean nothing personal by what I say.. It's all just music to me.. And I feel nothing but love right now.. Happy valentines day.. Yo.. [Verse] It's another story, you've heard about mine But you ain't seeing me, you see the outline In my mind, it's so cold and bitter It's loneliness, cause I am only warm when I'm with her Since when we met, you let me show affection It seems distant, time can change your whole perception But you were so sweet to me Anytime I needed you, you were there to speak to me.. You tried to rescue me, when I was feeling stranded And yet, somehow I still took you for granted It's a cost, that I can't afford Our relationship was done, when I went overboard The water's frozen so I can't swim I should have never took a chance in romance When the only thing I want is to forget b**h, this ain't a love song, you got it confused, this is my regret Now I'm letting go of everything Forgetting love, when all you wanted was a steady fling A big house, a nice car will complete her Shallow minded, I'm reminded of what runs deeper But I ain't wrong, she deserves no less Feelings trap me, you know I wish you happiness At my lowest you were there, and I was so blessed But I'm cursed, so you're never gonna see me at my best.. And the memories will fade away I'll show my true colours, you see in Shades of Grey So treat my life like it's all fiction Might as well, since I wrote my own crucifixion You couldn't picture, what I depicted I dove in front of a train, the pain is self-inflicted Like I just want to leave this earth Cause sometimes you need to die, for them realize what you were worth.. And I ain't saying this to make you mad You left me broken, good, now I'm Breaking Bad This ain't a moment, a camera could just capture Forget the story, if you haven't read the last chapter As I'm fighting through the sandstorm Here I stand, still hoping I can transform I'm inspired by the bu*terfly Cause it can all change, in the blink, of an eye I just want to see you when I come home There's nothing I am more afraid of, than the unknown Until the dark times came about I used to see with love, but now the flame is out So how'd I ever let you ruin me? Forget a promise, all I got was promiscuity But I'll find comfort, in different company And f** these s*uts, the same way I know you used to like to f** with me.. You say I'm crazy, but how can I be? When you fit me to an insanity I must be dreaming, as I'm sleep writing Tryna find a reason, for me to keep fighting When I'm too weak to hold a conversation I miss you, so there is no miscommunication But the memories I will erase You wanna f**? You'll f** the whole human race And all you needed was a change of pace The warm embrace, of staring at a stranger's face Without a trace, I was gone, try to collate I guess you need a soul first, to find a soulmate Feels like I'm walking in the falling rain The closest I'mma get to balling, is my ball and chain I'm held back by what you think I am The real me ain't got a filter, I'm no Instagram So you know this ain't no perfect picture It's what I'm feeling, while I'm hanging from the ceiling fixture They say it's suicidal tendency So let me go, before I show you codependency Just call me psycho, like it's logical Since all of my problems are psychological If I'm addicted, then I should quit Cause now I've learnt, that you and I are not a good fit.. And you don't mind, whether I live or not I used to wanna fight, but now I'm giving up If I say it's love, though, I should mean forever I guess we have to stay apart, just to be together But the truth is, I'm the one that made you hate me I couldn't let you get close, for your own safety And you were more than just a friend If love was real, I would try, but it always dies, in the end..