Elusive - Mistakes lyrics

[Hook: John Andrew] They tell me my condition is incurable.. They tell me that I need to take these d**, to numb the pain.. It's days like this, I just wish that I could rewrite my history.. But I must live with my mistakes.. [Verse 1: Elusive] I'm on my own, and all I hear is rain All I wanted was, someone to feel this pain Headed down the highway, eyes-closed, screaming I guess just being alive is driving me insane I think the past is catching up to me It's lost meaning, the demons have corrupted me And now I dug myself a hole, in mind control You took my soul, so tell me what else could you want from me I'm lying though, like it's easier To hide this side of me, my schizophrenia But if I'm psycho, I'll ride a bicycle Across the night sky, while screaming f** the media And I am sorry if I offended They tell me, that my mind needs to be mended Shocked that I ain't seen a doctor in a long while I smile and say that I'm exactly how God intended, what? [Hook] [Verse 2: Elusive] I'm in a padded room, with iron locks I k**ed myself back in '89, rewind the clocks Cause it was homicide, and I was cast aside By society, guess I'm a paradox Is it funny, or am I amusing? The funny thing is, this is my delusion And it's funny that I'm sitting here alone Cause this is all just my own illusion And I do it for my own amusement Like sh** stinks I think I need a new scent Or a noose sent, so I can hang myself Next time I watch the news and wonder the f** the news went But I look at life like, what a ride From the pain to the love, until it f**ing died And you couldn't see the whole picture Cause every True Love Story had another side, uh.. [Hook] [Verse 3: Elusive] Can you hear me? I'm calling you This time I'm going all in, forgetting all I knew But there's a hole where my heart was I guess it must be the love I think I fall into But it's your arms - my only salvation I'm stuck in time, my life's an animation How can I let go of the past? I need your help Since I couldn't even pa** my self-evaluation My mind ain't ever being mended And you shouldn't take it like a side-note Now the Sleepless Dream for me, had ended Cause When I'm Gone started off as a suicide note But you love my impurity You love that I don't wanna reach maturity I guess you love my sickness, but it inflicts us I should have known that your affection was the cure to me.. [Hook]