Elizabeth Barrett Browning - Bertha in the Lane lyrics

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Elizabeth Barrett Browning - Bertha in the Lane lyrics

I. Put the broidery-frame away,  For my sewing is all done: The last thread is used to-day,  And I need not join it on. Though the clock stands at the noon I am weary. I have sewn, Sweet, for thee, a wedding-gown. II. Sister, help me to the bed,  And stand near me, Dearest-sweet. Do not shrink nor be afraid,  Blushing with a sudden heat! No one standeth in the street?— By God's love I go to meet, Love I thee with love complete. III. Lean thy face down; drop it in  These two hands, that I may hold 'Twixt their palms thy cheek and chin,  Stroking back the curls of gold: 'T is a fair, fair face, in sooth— Larger eyes and redder mouth Than mine were in my first youth. IV. Thou art younger by seven years—  Ah!—so bashful at my gaze, That the lashes, hung with tears,  Grow too heavy to upraise? I would wound thee by no touch Which thy shyness feels as such. Dost thou mind me, Dear, so much? V. Have I not been nigh a mother  To thy sweetness—tell me, Dear? Have we not loved one another  Tenderly, from year to year, Since our dying mother mild Said with accents undefiled, "Child, be mother to this child"! VI. Mother, mother, up in heaven,  Stand up on the jasper sea, And be witness I have given  All the gifts required of me,— Hope that blessed me, bliss that crowned, Love that left me with a wound, Life itself that turneth round! VII.  Thou art standing in the room, In a molten glory shrined  That rays off into the gloom! But thy smile is bright and bleak Like cold waves—I cannot speak, I sob in it, and grow weak. VIII. Ghostly mother, keep aloof  One hour longer from my soul, For I still am thinking of  Earth's warm-beating joy and dole! On my finger is a ring Which I still see glittering When the night hides everything. IX. Little sister, thou art pale!  Ah, I have a wandering brain— But I lose that fever-bale,  And my thoughts grow calm again. Lean down closer—closer still! I have words thine ear to fill, And would kiss thee at my will. X. Dear, I heard thee in the spring,  Thee and Robert—through the trees,— When we all went gathering  Boughs of May-bloom for the bees. Do not start so! think instead How the sunshine overhead Seemed to trickle through the shade. XI. What a day it was, that day!  Hills and vales did openly Seem to heave and throb away  At the sight of the great sky: And the silence, as it stood In the glory's golden flood, Audibly did bud, and bud. XII. Through the winding hedgerows green,  How we wandered, I and you, With the bowery tops shut in,  And the gates that showed the view! How we talked there; thrushes soft Sang our praises out, or oft Bleatings took them from the croft: XIII. Till the pleasure grown too strong  Left me muter evermore, And, the winding road being long,  I walked out of sight, before, And so, wrapt in musings fond, Issued (past the wayside pond) On the meadow-lands beyond. XIV. I sate down beneath the beech  Which leans over to the lane, And the far sound of your speech  Did not promise any pain; And I blessed you full and free, With a smile stooped tenderly O'er the May-flowers on my knee. XV. But the sound grew into word  As the speakers drew more near— Sweet, forgive me that I heard  What you wished me not to hear. Do not weep so, do not shake, Oh,—I heard thee, Bertha, make Good true answers for my sake. XVI. Yes, and HE too! let him stand  In thy thoughts, untouched by blame. Could he help it, if my hand  He had claimed with hasty claim? That was wrong perhaps—but then Such things be—and will, again. Women cannot judge for men. XVII. Had he seen thee when he swore  He would love but me alone? Thou wast absent, sent before  To our kin in Sidmouth town. When he saw thee who art best Past compare, and loveliest. He but judged thee as the rest. XVIII. Could we blame him with grave words,  Thou and I, Dear, if we might? Thy brown eyes have looks like birds  Flying straightway to the light: Mine are older.—Hush!—look out— Up the street! Is none without? How the poplar swings about! XIX. And that hour—beneath the beech,  When I listened in a dream, And he said in his deep speech  That he owed me all esteem,— Each word swam in on my brain With a dim, dilating pain, Till it burst with that last strain. XX. I fell flooded with a dark,  In the silence of a swoon. When I rose, still cold and stark,  There was night; I saw the moon And the stars, each in its place, And the May-blooms on the gra**, Seemed to wonder what I was. XXI. And I walked as if apart  From myself, when I could stand, And I pitied my own heart,  As if I held it in my hand— Somewhat coldly, with a sense Of fulfilled benevolence, And a "Poor thing" negligence. XXII. And I answered coldly too,  When you met me at the door; And I only heard the dew  Dripping from me to the floor: And the flowers, I bade you see, Were too withered for the bee,— As my life, henceforth, for me. XXIII. Do not weep so—Dear,—heart-warm!  All was best as it befell. If I say he did me harm,  I speak wild,—I am not well. All his words were kind and good— He esteemed me. Only, blood Runs so faint in womanhood! XXIV. Then I always was too grave,—  Liked the saddest ballad sung,— With that look, besides, we have  In our faces, who die young. I had died, Dear, all the same; Life's long, joyous, jostling game Is too loud for my meek shame. XXV. We are so unlike each other,  Thou and I, that none could guess We were children of one mother,  But for mutual tenderness. Thou art rose-lined from the cold, And meant verily to hold Life's pure pleasures manifold. XXVI. I am pale as crocus grows  Close beside a rose-tree's root; Whosoe'er would reach the rose,  Treads the crocus underfoot. I, like May-bloom on thorn-tree, Thou, like merry summer-bee,— Fit that I be plucked for thee! XXVII. Yet who plucks me?—no one mourns,  I have lived my season out, And now die of my own thorns  Which I could not live without. Sweet, be merry! How the light Comes and goes! If it be night, Keep the candles in my sight. XXVIII. Are there footsteps at the door?  Look out quickly. Yea, or nay? Some one might be waiting for  Some last word that I might say. Nay? So best!—so angels would Stand off clear from d**hly road, Not to cross the sight of God. XXIX. Colder grow my hands and feet.  When I wear the shroud I made, Let the folds lie straight and neat,  And the rosemary be spread, That if any friend should come, (To see thee, Sweet!) all the room May be lifted out of gloom. XXX. And, dear Bertha, let me keep  On my hand this little ring, Which at nights, when others sleep,  I can still see glittering! Let me wear it out of sight, In the grave,—where it will light All the dark up, day and night. XXXI. On that grave drop not a tear!  Else, though fathom-deep the place, Through the woollen shroud I wear  I shall feel it on my face. Rather smile there, blessèd one, Thinking of me in the sun, Or forget me—smiling on! XXXII. Art thou near me? nearer! so—  Kiss me close upon the eyes, That the earthly light may go  Sweetly, as it used to rise When I watched the morning-grey Strike, betwixt the hills, the way He was sure to come that day. XXXIII. So,—no more vain words be said!  The hosannas nearer roll. Mother, smile now on thy Dead,  I am d**h-strong in my soul. Mystic Dove alit on cross, Guide the poor bird of the snows Through the snow-wind above loss! XXXIV. Jesus, Victim, comprehending  Love's divine self-abnegation, Cleanse my love in its self-spending,  And absorb the poor libation! Wind my thread of life up higher, Up, through angels' hands of fire! I aspire while I expire.