Eli "LE" Lesser - As a Driven Leaf lyrics

I rock down river, not gently down the stream They got one thing right, this life is but a dream I used to blunt my mind with blunts I keep feining the green I was puffin so much my blood must look like Listerine Kanye West said it best, I don't forget it We're all self conscious I'm just the first to admit it Can't open my mouth cause I got this self doubt Can't walk a straight path on a crooked route I'm rapping on the bus, "that dude needs some help" Ain't got no one else, I'm talking to myself My head on my pillow, mister weeping willow Think I gotta chill though, but I'm feeling ill bro Like a different person when I wake up every day Nothing else to say, I live a thousand shades of grey Absurdism, nihilism, see my life through this prism Sometimes it is sometimes it isn't, trapped in this prison [Hook X2] Damn, cause I got the blues Can't understand a man unless you walk in his shoes And I think I'd walk to Heaven if I got to choose But I can't so I won't, hand me the booze Now as this Bacardi's finally wearing off And I wake up, I can see that I'm tearing up I lost a lot things that meant a lot to me So sometimes I just get lost in this monotony As a driven leaf, I'm just floating in the wind On the devils back as he carries me to sin Life is a game but there's no way to win If I got a heavy head, how can I keep up my chin? I'm feeling worthless like a stock from RIM All this wasted time is a shocking sin It's hard to be upbeat when you feel beat down On my sleeves all you'll see are the tears of a clown Would drink away the pain but I fear ill drown My smile is just a mask, concealing a frown People love to doubt no supporters or fans But everything I'm not made me everything I am and [Hook X2] Damn, cause I got the blues Can't understand a man unless you walk in his shoes And I think I'd walk to Heaven if I got to choose But I can't so I won't, hand me the booze