East Coast Avengers - A Valiant Effort lyrics

[Verse 1: Trademarc] My ears are ringing, it's like children singing or humming I'm numb and I'm thinking it's nothing I'm confused by the booze and medication It's modern-day meditation My generation sees that combination as an expectation Half-done, I'm moving in slo-mo Through an imitation of life, it's like an illustration or a photo But the perspective ain't right It's like the lights cast by a yo-yo in midflight It's too bright, I'm confused and lost I feel transparent and barren and used Like a red herring tossed and forced in my own thoughts with no bearing Black to light, back to life and I breathe in I sit up, I'm light headed, the world is out of focus I know this, I try to get up, I instantly regret it I spit up, I don't get it, the glow, the world looks overexposed Or like a negative with shadows where the colours should go and vice versa I'm thrown by the ring of the phone like inertia Flown like a cyclone, head spinning Still blown from the beginning, I'm sitting in front of my body Now on the bed, dead grinning, a red linen, brain spilling Conflicted, the wounds looks self-inflicted like it's scripted A knock on the door, I feel distant like staring backwards Through binoculars, inconsistent, the picture fades I'm non-existent but I'm persistent, I wanna stay! You can't see me this way, I love you momma! [Verse 2: Esoteric] Aw sh**, what the f** did I walk into? My man's a bloody mess up in his room, he cut his flesh Drugged up like Hunter S., must've been under stress Nonetheless he flunked the test, succumbing to life's ugliness A gun to his chest and head, a knife to his wrists, he bled Twisted lead's f**ed him up like his sister said Plus Erica left him for some war on terror veteran Now he's dying in the bed they never slept in I crept in and saw the blood on the hand that his writing pen was kept in That his medical depression was prepped in Suicide, glazed over as poetic expression, a valiant effort I had the chance to step in but said, “F it” Dawg, why'd you do this to us? You know what this crew is to us Your mom tried this sh** in ‘91 now she's dialing 911 I think your time has come, this being the top one Dumbest things you ever done I know your life is erased, no one ever could have won You'd rather dream than live now my head is hung